first time trg at simei

ok...yesterdae was the first time i went to simei for my tkd trg....
n i got bullied by 3 stupid gers....
cos the floor was super dirty and dey made my gi v black....
but i mux sae honestly tt it's quite fun la....
too bad titus not der....cos tink e trg der not v effectively....
like din learn much n din do much...
but i got to spar a few times wif a karate black belt...
quite shiok....n i got to spar wif benjamin too...
n i mus sae tt both of dem r gd...
after trg, we proceed to joey's hse.....for dinner...
dinner was GD!
haha....reali gd....cooked by mr ong's wife....
n e hse was v comfortable....n cosy..
den after tt was toking cock n more toking cock....
ryan is so cute lor....hhaha...
n he eats alot.....stay until past midnite...
v enjoyable....=)

nvm stay in sch until so late b4

left sch at 1830 today...was tutoring sharon n huiyi physics and math....
thou abit late n i got things to do...but guessed still ok to help dem
cos at least dey r willing to help themselves....
but i duno how long can i help dem.....
c how things go lor....
waiting for my scholarship reply....
kena rejected by edb....
so guess now left with keppel and agd....
cos ocbc tink oso gone after i gave them a honest reply that i would prefer keppel....
tink not alwaes gd to b honest....
starting to tink if i was wrong to reject natsteel scholarship...
it's a risk i chose to take then.....
suddenly after kena rejected by edb, my confidence level dropped....
but since i made that choice liao...i dun wan to look back...
look forward pls....things mayb better...
dreamt that i got a scholarship last nite...thou carn remember which one...
dreams do come true, do they?
i certainly hope so...
if u ask me, i dun haf so much confidence in keppel....
more confident in getting the agd scholarship...
c how things go lor....
pray for me that i will get my scholarship...
thx

getting fitter?

tink i m getting fitter....e veins on my leg is cuming out liao....
n i can go at high speed for a longer distance without feeling shag at all.....
felt so gd abt it.....tink by the time i reach uni, i can run ahm liao...
dun need to wait until sept....e progress is gd....
supposed to go to agd for my scholarship interview but it's postponed due to the election....
so stupid...so my afternoon super free and i slept it away...haha...
guessed it's ok since i m lacking in my slp....
dis wk sldn't b so busy....
jux need to read thru the past yr paper n make sure i noe how to do
so sldn't b tt bad....but duno wat to do for this wkend...
mayb slp it away...reali quite tired...how long more can i take this kind of life?
my students kept linking me wif 1 of e relief teacher....
everytime dey mentioned gwen, i jux tot of her n e relationship....
but wat can i do?
i guessed i carn do anything...
carn stop e students frm toking abt it
carn salvage the relationship....

how long more can i last

wonder how long more can i stick to this relief teaching...
driving me nuts....carn stand their bloody attitude....
this is wk 5....time flies....but it's painful....
i wan to lead a hapi life...n my life is not hapi now....
so wat's stopping me?
ego? to proof i can last 1 term? but to who? to myself?
i duno....life is stress n not hapi....
at least back in camp, life is stress n not hapi but e pple der make u hapi....
duno wat i m tinking...
finali reject my natsteel scholarship...
dun wan to tink abt it liao....cos i dun wan to look back n regret...
hope i wont....
it's has been almost 5 mths since i broke up wif her...
guess my heart still sae tt i like her....
actuali when i first started out wif her, i din expect myself to like her so much....
still v much affected by her words and actions....
wat can i do?
jux live wif it lor

damned pissed

i was damned pissed 2dae...
reali wan to fuck my 3a2 n 3c2....
told me wan to take after sch n onli like half the class turn up...
wat kind of fucking attitude is tt?
i swear i will make sure dey fall hard this term if this is the only way to make dem wake up their idea
n i will only allow those who wan to study to cum to my class....
e rest, i dun wan to gif a damn...
if e sch dun like wat i m doing, den i will jux quit....n i reali mean it this time....
n a babi boy made my dae 2dae...after e students made me so angry...
was at jp kfc wif craig....den when i was washing my hand. there's this babi boy tt looked at me n smile so i smile back...den he became v hapi....n start to wave his hand...so cute....
thx babi boy for making my dae....
natsteel dun allow me to delay my decision n hence i tink i will reject their offer...
finali ocbc replied me n hoped i can get this scholarship......
c how things go lor

scholarships

got my natsteel scholarship....
initial i was hapi....cos i finali got my scholarship...
but as i tink further....i m confused...
cos it's not my 1st choice scholarship...
edb is my first choice...follow by keppel and natsteel den e uni scholarship....
n i haven got a reply from keppel and edb...
keppel first round is next thur...edb final round is end apr....
n i got to accept e natsteel by next tue....
duno y dey rushed me? wan to grab me b4 others do so?
was abit confused until i tok to carol wong....
she's always able to make me c things from other pt of view n give me sound advice....
so guess after e tok 2dae...i haf sort of make up my mind wif rgds to this offer....
i will request to hold back my decision until mid may when i got all the replies from e other scholarships board b4 i make my decision....
guess it's reasonable n if dey reali wan me, dey sld b willing to accept my demand....
hope so..
if not guess i will reject e offer....
like wat carol wong sae...if i can convince 1 listed company ceo n their top management to offer me a scholarship, i sld b able to convince e rest...
hope so...anyway, this natsteel scholarship made me more confident of my own ability...

wat a wk

this wk is totali crazy....
partly made worse by the edb qn...
took up alot of my time...cos i duno how to ans tt qn...
in e end, i jux wack la....dun care liao....
din reali prepare my teaching materials...
sec 1 teach new topics so used power pt all e way for this wk
sec is test n go thru ws
anyway, this wk onli 3daes working wk
will b over soon....
went for my grading 2dae....
guessed i sld haf passed.....hope so la
den one last grading to my black belt...
super looking forward to it....
haven reali went to visit my grandma this wk
went once but she's sleeping while waiting for her tea time snacks....
mux go n visit her soon....
this wk finali over soon...b it wheather e ending is a gd one or not...
life still goes on n i will jux pick myself up if i fall...
as simple as tt

3rd wk over liao

finali 3rd wk is over liao....nightmare? mayb i m getting used to it liao....
so after e 3rd wk, i concluded that only 2 of my 6 classes wan to study...
for e rest of e classes, e majority dun gif a damn....
so i dun wan to gif so much damn abt dem oso...
i dun haf so much energy....
went for training on tue...sparred wif titus for e first time...
a gd experience...he dun go all out to wack u....got contact but can learn at e same time....
n tink my sparring getting better...
2dae i counsel junyang's student...a ger...
duno wat happened to her...
she jux sae tt she got famili prob, she was betrayed by a fren...
she's now not v close to a ger tt used to b v gd fren wif her....
den i jux counsel lor...
thou i m wondering in my head if she's a lesbian...but i din ask...
sensitive ma...but after chatting wif her, she's better liao....
so i sae i need to go....
den initiali she sae wanted to take her test...
but after tt she sae she wanted to go home...so she walked together wif me to e mrt....
hmm...let's hope she dun get e wrong idea....
gwne sae in term 1, der's was this student who had a crash on her....n wanted to take foto wif her...
i definitely dun wan a student to like me...
dey r ALL not my cup of tea....
yeah...tmr i can wake up late...

haiz.....

starting to gif up hope on my norm tech class liao....
i m losing control over dem, or sld i sae, i neva had control over dem in e first place....
tink jux let dem learn it thru e hard way...
suffered or fall badly n u will learn....
since dey dun wan to listen to me.....i shall only help those who care to help themselves.....
but my upper sec class n my express is still ok....
allowed 1 guy to use hp 2dae in my class to communicate wif his bro
he was very down 2dae n i realised it's bcos his bro is going to jail....so naturali, he's sad...
n tink he's quite close to his bro....
i mean rule is rule n sometimes haf to bend it abit....
suddenly realise my life quite dependent on tv...cos my tv was sent for repair...
my dad n mum quarrel again...
over a tv...tt my mum sent for repair....wifout telling him....
i duno wat to say....but it's jux so stupid...
jux over 1 tv...
it's a waste of energy...
i m sick of it liao

busy busy = pimples pimples?

once again, i din really get the rest i wanted this wkend
spent my sat morning at keppel....
quite ok....went to their shipyard and some onther business unit...
somehow got e feeling tt keppel is alot bigger den natsteel, in e sense tt it's more diverse...
den mayb i can get more experience....
but nmv la...c how things go....
finali i went for e run tt i had wanted to....thou only a short run...it's always gd to sweat it out....
den after tt was perparing my teaching material for next wk....
finali saw gwen online....so chatted abit wif her.....quite nice to chat wif....
dino her parents divorced....she looked so hapi....guessed she's strong ba....
sun was bball.....i m starting to get quite pissed playing wif those china men....
they like to play 6 on 6....carzy lor....so packed.....
den der's this bastard tt like to use his elbow alot....
me gana 2 or 3 times in a day...now my back hurts.....he's a farker....
he like rough n yet when i played rough wif him, he kao bei....
wtf man....
initiali wanted to visit ah ma after my tuition on sun....but it's raining cats n dogs when i m done wif my tuition...so i went home instead....
oh ya....smu called me in sat when i was sleeping...
i was called up for e smu scholarship interview...
tot i haf already gave up my place in smu....so was quite surprised to receive the call....
guess i will b going for e interview....
e only scenario where i will go to smu is dey offer me a scholarship n no other org offer me a sholarship....den i will go der so tt i can lighten the burden on my famili since my sis oso entering uni....anyway, it doesn't matter where i study...
c how lor
so next mon got driving, tue is smu scholarship, wed duno, thur tkd, fri natsteel second round and mayb tkd.....sat duno. sun is grading....
the coming wk sound quite packed to me....
hope i can make it thru=)
n ya, my pimples cuming out n my sis sae this is e result of not having enuf slp...
isit true?