it's not possible to haf e best of 2 worlds

went for facial on thur...
wakao, e extraction damn painful, almost wanted to ask e lady to stop...
she sae until like my skin condition super jialat...reali so bad meh?
dun care la...cos i noe recently i haf not being sticking to my face washing regime diligently cos i m abit sian...
so guess it's time to start taking care of it again...
i got alot of things tt i want to buy...
n with such a huge financial injection tt i got a few wks ago, i really got e temptation to splurge...
luckily i m controlling myself...
guess i sld sit down n write down e things i wan n c which is more impt....
i had being wondering if i had changed since i was awarded e keppel scholarship...
i hope i m still e old qiyang....i guess so ba...
woke up at ard 6:30am on fri morning to go send her to work...
cos i noe she's a bit sad tt she carn c me on thur nite...
n yA she was shocked to c me on fri morning...but guessed she was happy...
like wat she told me last night, wheneva she wan to c me, i didn't turn up...wheneva she's not expecting to c me, i will pop up from nowhere...
had a 1 hr 51 min 54 sec chat wif her last night....
nowadays, it seem tt we can tok abt anything under e sun, even those sensitive topics and we reali told each other how we feel....
if last wk was gd, i guess dix wk i was in dreamland....
saw her 3 times....felt like we were together again..even she sae tt she felt like a couple...
jux tt in real life, we r not...she sae tt e feeling is even beta den those she had back den when she was with me....
she sae tt it's being super long since she had such a wonderful chat with anyone...
basically i guess none of us wanted to end e conversation but it was getting real late liao....
she sae she's confused n ask me wat i will do if i was her...
i sae follow her heart, choose someone tt she can c future wif....
n i keep telling her e knight can only b a knight n neva a prince...
hope dis made her less confused...
jux leave it to fate ba