i m reali v hurt

2dae is wed...now the time is 3:35pm
yesterdae was one of my hapiest dae in the bn...
n now right at this moment, i m v hurt...
was chatting wif her....
sldn't haf chatted wif her in the first place...
y y y did i wan to chat wif her...

v dae is cuming n i reali duno wat will happen to me when tt dae cum...
go into hiding? go into hibernation? go back to camp n hide? run till far far away?
i duno how to face tt dae
i dun wan to face it...
y did i wan to ask if she has brought her v dae present liao anot...
y did i wan to touch on tt topic
yyyyyyyy

m i still holding on to the hope tt i can celebrate v dae wif her?
i tink so ba
but the tot is v painful
n yet i carn stop myself from tinking...