break up

i look forward to the date wif dear 2dae n i din expect it to end it in that manner...
the shopping was nice...we went orchard...trying to shop for my tie and shirt...thou i din get any in the end...but it was nice being wif her...

she told me a lot of things when i sent her home....
wat i sense over the last wk is not wrong...
she is feeling troubled and she is cold towards me n i finali noe y 2dae....

she told me tt she still got feelings for her ex and she felt is v unfair to me....
she sae tt her ex noe her better and there's a missing linkage between us compare to her n her ex...she sae tt i dun understand her as well as her ex...
she is very troubled...she dun noe wat to do...
i m not a gd bf as i had initiali tot...
she sae i wan freedom n she tried to change herself to accomodate me but i dun wan her to change....
she sae der r time when she sae she dun mind me not having time for her when actuali she's not v comfortable wif it...
i dun blame her....
i have not been understanding enuf....
she sae tt her ex was able to console her when she's down n she felt the bond when he console her...i was not able to do tt...

i saw the tears in her eyes...
i hate to make her cry...she's a nice ger...she din do anything wrong...
i haven cried for a long time and 2dae i did....
i wished i can cried out loud....

2dae was 21 nov 05 and we started on the 2 aug 05...
3 mthx and 19 daes n is this the end?
she asked if i m gifing her up?
i duno how to ans...
i hate to give her up...i swear...

she asked if i had eva like her b4....
i swear i did like her b4 but perhaps u duno how much u like tt person until u gave her up...
now i noe...i reali like her....
she will be hapier wif her ex...

let me b the bad guy dear....i dun wan u to feel bad...
mayb i will feel better if u hate me....

thx for the memories n hapi moments...

luv u dear winnie...