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BIG BIG dream!

2009-03-19T23:11:00.000-07:00

soon, in another few weeks, my student life will come to an end. I will be moving on to the next phase of my life - working life, where i slog it out in the corporate world. i don't know if im really looking forward to it. but guess since i always like changes n improvement in my life, the working life can be really exciting if i seize all opportunities that come my way.

i was talking to my junior a few night ago. we talked abt work n potential companies that we would like to work in. suddenly i had a better/clearer idea of what i want to achieve in the next 24 years. (yes, if you go n calculate, i wan to retire when i am 48-50 years old). it was only then that i realised i really have an obsession with word 'largest'. Below was what i told my fren:

" I will start my career in Keppel Offshore & Marine, the world's largest rig builder. subsequently, i wan to work in GE Capital, which is the world's largest non-bank financial company (at least that's what i read on a bloomberg article). Next up, not in any order, i wan to work for

- Exxon Mobile: the world's largest oil n gas company
- Toyota: should be the world largest car company now, given the BIG 3 of USA are dying (though personally, i prefer BMW cars. haha)
- Coca-cola: owner of 4 of the world's top 5 nonalcoholic sparkling beverage brands
- Blackstone: the world leader in private equity investing
- Proctor & Gamble: should be among the world's largest consumer goods company"

so that's 7 industries in abt 24 years. Given the varied experience i have, I would love to end my career in GIC, to help grow our nation's wealth/reserves because i think it's a bit wrong if i help other sovereign wealth fund to grow their reserves n not my own country's reserve.

on top of this, i would like to spend some time in Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation and Li Ka Shing Foundation. this will allow me to witness how 2 of the largest foundations in the world operate in two different regions: Asia and America. Ultimately, i wan to set up my own non-profit organisation (i have not decided on the focus of my NPO, cos i have not seen enough of this world yet). if i happened to be rich enough, I would definitely love to have my own foundation to carry on my dream even when i m not around anymore.

okie, i know this blog is v crazy, sounds impossible and that I am day dreaming. haha. it's because im too lazy to study for my quizzes, so i decide to dream abit to motivate myself. haha. maybe a few years down the road, when i read this blog again, i will be reminded of this BIG BIG BIG dream that i have.

okie, back to reality

recession makes me grow up even faster

2009-01-30T07:35:00.000-08:00

everyone knew that recession is here. you heard people saying that they are feeling the impact of the recession. do they really feel the impact? some people may say that they lost some paper money on their investment. but those loses are unrealised and as long as you are able to hold on til the crisis is over, you sld b fine.

i have being through a few financial crisis: 1997 asia financial crisis and this current crisis. but i never really felt the impact until now because i finally understood that the impact will only be felt when your family lost the main source of income.

i just realised that my family has lost the main source of income. suddenly, i felt the impact of recession. suddenly, i truly understand that Cash is KING. suddenly, there's a high possibility that i will be providing for the whole family as soon as i graduate.

it's amazing how things have changed over the 3 years. in my first year of undergraduate, i didn't think about going for better job cos im contented with what i have and i just want to finish my course smoothly. i dun need to worry financially cos my family was still doing fine and i have my scholarship allowance

in my second year, i was tempted by the more glamorous and high paying jobs, so much so that i regretted taking up the scholarship.

in my 3rd year, first, there was the economy downturn and some of my friends can't even find jobs. suddenly it seemed like having a scholarship and a rather decent job was a fortunate and lucky thing. as of 30 jan 2009, i felt that a scholarship was really a blessing in disguise because i managed to have some savings from the scholarship and these amount should be able to see me through until i start work in june. though in the process, i may have to give up certain luxuries: my bangkok trip in march, cfa level 2 examination in jun, grad trip, unnecessary items like new clothes and a new bag etc.

it's amazing how my views on my scholarship award can fluctuate so drastically in a time span of 3 years.

some side notes:
1) i managed to pass my cfa level 1 examination. worldwide passing rate is 35%
2) i donated blood for the first time today. surprisingly, i quite like the experience. it's pleasant and meaningful
3) perhaps i sld buy some toto for next wk's toto ang bao 2009
4) i will be looking for some part time job from now onwards.

Year 2009 started on a rather bad note. hope it will be better in the coming months

Rich or Poor

2009-01-17T18:12:00.000-08:00

i always wonder if it's better for a kid to grow up in a not-so-well-to-do family.

using myself as an example, i grew up in a not-so-well-to-d0 family. not everyone knows that the first time i traveled abroad was with the SAF. in fact, my first 3 overseas trips were with the army. there were many things i wanted when i was young. i didn't dare to request cos i knew my parents were not v rich. they scrimped and saved for the family. when i started to get really sensible about life in secondary, i knew if i wanted the things, i will earn them myself. that's why some of my friends may feel that i was super driven to do well and be successful in life.

though my auntie is rather strict, and not so willing to spend on my little cousin, all my other relatives some how doted on her. hence i felt she was rather spoilt and super passive abt studies. my aunt has being supervising her studies since young (my cousin is studying primary 6 now). i always felt that my aunt would never be able to supervise her once she gets to secondary school cos it's just going to get more n more difficult. and i seriously hope my little cousin will be more sensible by then.

i have some rich friends. some are so self-centered that they simply lack EQ and initiative. and it can be very frustrating to have such friends at times. yet, i have friends who are very down-to-earth, despite them being so rich. they still have the drive to do well, and i was pleasantly surprised by that.

Therefore, i really wondered if all these are a result of the kind of characters that GOD gives them or as a result of lifes being too comfortable.

sometimes, i joked with my gf that if i happen to be rich in the future, i would still appear to be poor (like stay in HDB flat, don't drive car,no expensive holiday trips etc). i still believes it's better to grow up in a poor family. am i wrong to think it that way???

side track a bit. i am rather lost for this sem. i don't know what should be my foucs. that's why i have not stated down my 2009 resolutions cos i still don't know what i want to achieve for this yr.

year 2008 review

2009-01-01T14:44:00.000-08:00

this could be a very long blog.

it has being so long since i blog. 2 reasons: i am really quite busy for since the start of my internship in jun. i also lost a bit of desire to blog. haha

BUT I decided to make a comeback! cos i wan to put down my thoughts for year 2008 and i prefer to type it out rather than write it down using pen.

learnt a few important lessons this yr which made me think a lot about what i really want in life, what am i really going after in life?

yr 2008 marks my first encounter with business cases and i fall in love with business cases cos it was really the most challenging thing in my uni life. business cases opened up a lot of opportunities: like presenting to a director from pwc advisory, joining Business Solutions club (thus meeting more like-minded people, esp malcolm wong), representing nbs in business case competitions, getting to know frens from other countries. most importantly, business cases allowed me to have a better idea of the kind of career that will interest me.

went back to kom for internship cos i couldn't get approval to go hsbc. so i tried to make do with what i had and i requested to do a few wks of internship at both corporate development deapartment and finance. finance really bored me. i am dying to get out of that department cos i dun plan to do accounting for the rest of my life. i repeated this a lot of time: accounting is just a good knowledge to have in the business world. i wan to do strategy, or work that are more analytical based. my request to make a permanent switch to corporate development department was turned down.

perhaps all these are not really that important. the most painful lesson for 2008: spend more time with ur loved ones (be it family or frens). don't use work etc as an excuse. it's v painful when u decided to spend time with someone but that person is no longer living in this world.

during the wk of my business case competition, my taekwondo coach of 7 yrs passed away on the 3rd day of my competition. i had plans to visit my grandma immediately after my competition ended on a fri. but it was too late, my grandma passed away on the very last day of my competition. the kind of sadness can't be described. i hate myself for using trainings and work as an excuse not to visit my grandma every wk. i thought i can make it up to her after my competition. i lost that chance forever.

it made me wondered what do i really want? achievements, money, proving myself or simply to lead a normal life if that allows me to spend time with my loved ones.

do u know what u really want? i used to think i know what i want. yr 2008 made me think otherwise. yr 2008 made me think harder, in a painful way

so what if u r gd

2008-06-16T22:50:00.000-07:00

finally, on 5 Jun, the released of the results marked the end of this whole semester. this is the first semester that i really overload.i wasn't really prepared for the exams and hence was already prepared for the worst case scenario.

To my surprise, it turned out to be my best semester ever, and it reaffirmed my belief that I am one who tend to do better as the semesters get harder and tougher. in fact, my total number of A+ this semester is equal to the combined number of A+ for my first 3 semesters. so glad that I am going for exchange next sem. my first class is 95% guarantee already.

so those at NUS, welcome me!!! haha and must jio me for lunch k. im a happy and relax man for my next 2 semester.

as for the internship, i concluded 1 thing. no matter what, i do learn as those are things i don't know. it's just whether those things i learn are useful anot. personally, im very disappointed with the internship.

some times i wondered if i am setting too high an expectation for the company? i don't know. if they have high expectations of me as a scholar, i do have high expectation for a company that it's one of the biggest company listed in SGX , in terms of market value.

too many things

2008-05-25T23:15:00.000-07:00

2 disasters happened recently. every victim in these 2 disaster (in china and myanmar) deserves our help.

There has being a lot of calls for donations. however, i was quite sad that most of the donations will be going to china. this is also 1 incident that further strengthen my belief that a strong, uncorrupted government is very important.

I can't blame people for not donating to myanmar because they may be worried that the corrupted military government may abuse the donations. however, i choose to donate my money to myanmar. simply because, I am willing to take the risk, cos the people there really need our help and money. i believe that the international community will enforce proper accountability and use of these donations. i believe and i hope so. secondly, everyone is donating to china, so i believe there should be sufficient money available to help the china people.

More importantly, i do believe that the victims in china need more than just money. i think they need more pairs of hands to help retrieve the bodies from the rubbles. if the china people just need money, i don't think we need to donate much because the chinese government has trillions dollars of reserve that they can use for such emergency causes. i mean, if they can spend billions of dollars revamping beijing to prepare for the upcoming olympic 2008 and invest billions in US banks during the sub-prime crisis, it's clear that china has the necessary financial resources to help the chinese people.

but i doubt i can say so for the myanmar people and i pity them for having such a government that's like SHIT.

i don't like my internship. in fact, i rather spend 4 hours in school training for my case competitions than to spend 4 hrs interning. i really benefited much more. many companies claimed that the internship pay is low because it's the learning that counts. and hence i felt very frustrated when i don't learn much, because im wasting my time away. i wished my internship ends asap.

some people told me that i shouldn't expect to get alot of internship allowance because the company alr gave me a sum of allowance yearly for my studies. maybe i should clarify that i don't expect to get what goldman sachs pay for their interns, but i think 700 bucks is still abit unacceptable, because i m not learning much. also, the yearly allowance is in exchange for me working for a number of years with the company after i graduate. it doesn't mean they can short-change me for my internship.

2 years ago, i thought i knew what i want, what industry i wan to be in. 2 years on, i have a better idea because i have seen more of this world to know what i should expect.

Half way through

2008-05-10T00:34:00.000-07:00

I was busy from wed morning to fri afternoon as I had my audition for an international case competition. I was selected into a 'provisional' team of 6, from which they will choose 4 to represent NTU in this international business case competition, while the remaining 2 will be reserve. The next 2 weeks will be critical. Half the battle is won, but it's not the end, it's not good enough. I need to put in more effort and really give my best. Hopefully I can make it to the final team of four.

Internship is starting next monday. The next 10 weeks will be torture if I make it to the team for the case competition because in the 10 weeks, i have to juggle a lot of commitment like my internship, my intense training for the competition, organising events for KSAA/keppel, touche 2008 (though I have not really being contributing much). Is this a holiday?

i m still mentally quite tired, so im going off to bed now.

I will be back =)

BACK!!!!!

2008-04-29T21:46:00.000-07:00

finally, this semester is over. What a memorable semester.
This is the first semester that i overloaded and i guessed it will turn out to be a bad choice. I hope this is the last semester that I would overload, but i guess the probability is small.
This semester was one of my greatest academic challenge in my life. Never felt so unprepared for both tutorials and exams. Like what one of my prof said: " from the way you asked your questions, i knew you didn't do your tutorial". That summed up my whole semester.

the only positive thing from this semester was that i got invited to audit for a chance to represent NBS in an international case competition. I will be going for the audition and hopefully I can make the cut.

I have also applied to NUS for exchange in Aug 2008. Hopefully it will be successful cos i can clear up to 6 cores in NUS, leaving me with only 2 cores in my final semester. this is the ideal situation.

recently, i was watching the HK show about 'Ah Wang' on channel 8. it made me wondered if i should just settle for a simple life, rather than aiming high and try to climb up the corporate ladder, try to work in global companies etc. should i be aiming for glamorous jobs such as investment bankers, consultants with any of the top 3 consultancy firms?

my final year will be critical. it could determine the step i will take for the next 5 years.

last but not least, it feels so good to exercise. went for a 40 lap swim in a super hot weather. shall aim to get back my figure.

HOLIDAY is HERE!!!!!
but my internship starts on 12 May. it will end on 19 July. =(

i need to b more discipline

2008-03-08T01:53:00.000-08:00

i m back again!
i realised i need to be more discipline in a lot of areas. below are are some of the areas:

1) i need to be start my exercise regime. being busy is not an excuse. i can feel my tummy again and it's a v bad sign.

2) when i set the alarm, i need to wake up when the alarm rings. if not, i should not set any alarm.

3) i need to apply my toner and wash my face more regularly, esp at night b4 i sleep.

4) i need to start using the teeth whitening stuff that i got from edgar, and on a regular basis b4 it expires. haha

5) i need to start planning my revision timetable. exams are just around the corner.

also,i need to spend some time after my exams to think abt my future, to have a 5 year plan, like what most governments like to do. it's gd to plan how your future should be like.

i need to start reading my investment stuffs and start looking for nice stocks to invest in.

but b4 all these, i need to defeat the 3 quiz/tests i have next wk. haha

someone told me this: even if you know your market value, perhaps what's more important is how much of this value can u realise.

perhaps this is true. thanks for this advice. it's a nice wake-up call

busy busy busy

2008-02-25T23:09:00.000-08:00

Wah, it's almost 2 months since i last blogged.

This sem is really crazy, guess i really underestimated the power of 'overloading'.
but at least, i really enjoyed myself when doing the 'special project' module. that module focus on case analysis and i like that, because it's really challenging and i get a new case every wk. I am also glad that I performed quite well in this module and hopefully I can be part of the NTU team that will compete in some international case competition next semester.

As of this moment, I will be doing my internship at keppel fels. I will be spending 8 weeks in finance department and 4 wks in corporate development. it's the 4 wks in corporate development that really interests me as i will be doing projects like merger and acquisitions etc. it's sort of related to the 'special project' module. This will become a fact, unless some other organisation come in with an internship offer which keppel approves. nonetheless, i still look forward to this yr's internship.

i am also looking forward to a short holiday with my baby (either b4 my internship starts or after my internship ends). most prob we will be going to hongkong. sld be going with some of her frens n their bf also.

that's all for the update today. hopefully, it's not too long before i will blog again. take care everyone

review of 2007 resolutions

2008-01-02T23:59:00.000-08:00

it's new yr and i have not thought of my new yr resolution. haha.
i took a look at my 2007 resolutions. i must said that i didn't manage to achieve most of my new yr resolution.

review of yr 2007 resolutions are as follows:

(1) maintain my results and my scholarship
(managed to maintain my results and my scholarship)

(2) aim to get into dean's list cos dun know wat's the feeling of getting into dean's list
(missed out on dean list by 0.01, at least i noe i m the highest non-dean lister. haha)

(3) make sure NTU Tkd Open 2007 is a success
(it was a great success. everything was perfect. it also made me see the ugly side of spore tkd, a side which i dont like)

(4) achieve break through in my sparring and try my best in the 1st sparring competition of my life representing ntu
(can't say that i achieve a break through. but i managed to do enough to get a chance to represent ntu)

(5) get my black belt by july grading, die die must achieve.
(i still have not gotten my black belt. i don't think i will be getting it. cos im too disgusted with the spore tkd, hence i don't see much of a point in working so hard to get my black.)

(6) have an enriching internship with keppel from may to july and mayb try to be involved in the organising of the ISBU games and also take part in it...
(the internship was great, managed to go for an OBS course also. was involved in the organising of the ISBU games and also the 2007 scholarship ceremony. great experience)

(7) wish to go either taiwan, france, uk, koreo, japan, phuket/bangkok for a holiday in july after my internship...a backpack will do as well too
(Failed to achieve. went for a trip to desaru in dec. the company was good, thou it's not the best place to go for a holiday)

(8) achieve at least a silver for ippt, but my aim sld b gold!
(managed to achieve silver. shall try for gold in yr 2008)

(9) must perserve in my weights training so that i can finally achieve a toned and well defined body, with 6 pecs too...
(Failed to achieve. must show more discipline in yr 2008 if i wan to get my 6 pecs)

(10) learn something new, be it a new martial arts, dancing, investment etc...
(started on investment, guess it's a gd start)

(11) win the battle against acne n acne scars cos im so sick of dem liao
(my acne is getting better, thou the scars are still there)

(12) keep up with my volunteer work, be it in nuh, MPS or other organisations
(still volunteering in nuh, thou it's not on a consistent basis cos there's only me and zhichao. hope 2008 will be better)

(13) never neglect all my frens, esp 4g gang, and my army frens
(i guess i managed to spend quite a bit of time with the GANG. the occassional gathering with my 4gians are great also. glad that i have them in my life)

(14) spend more time with my family members and also my grandma
(i don't think i managed to spend as much time at home as i had wished to. still managed to visit my grandma about once a week, but din manage to spend more time with her also)

(15) treat dear dear better!!!
( i guess my baby is the best person to answer this question )

(16) participate in AHM 2007 and also standard chartered marathon in dec and try to do my best in both the runs
(din manage to take part in ahm, thou i cant remember the reason. din participate in the marathon as i felt a bit of pain in my knee during that period, so i chose to rest it. hope i can complete my marathon in yr 2008)

(17) most importantly, be happy and try to refrain from vulagrities!!!!
(not sure if i managed to achieve this)

that's all for my review of yr 2007 resolutions. i will think of my yr 2008 resolution soon. stay tuned

surprises and a curse??

2007-12-28T17:30:00.000-08:00

it has being a long time since i blogged and hence i don't know what to start with for this entry.
in the end, i decided to start from this wk as i cant really remember what i did for the past few weeks. haha

mon was xmas eve and i celebrated with my 4gians at ben's hse. it has sort of like become a fixed annual gathering on this particular day. nothing was planned for. but it was still fun. went to giant to get food and some dvds movie. after hearing that 'the secret' by jay chou is a nice movie, i finally got the chance to watch that movie on xmas eve. it was really damned good. i was surprised that jay was able to produce such a good movie. nice plot, beautiful actress etc. i certainly dun mind watching again. xmas day was reserved for sleeping and chatting with my dear. so nothing much.

on wed, me and the gang set off for msia (desaru). as what kaiwei had said, i don't want to blog so much abt that trip as there's nothing much to blog abt. what's certain is that desaru is definitely on our 'ban' list of holiday destinations. thanks to zhongwei who brought 1 board game n 1 card game, if not we will be bored to death. haha.the 5 of us also managed to down a bottle (1 litre) of bailey and some bailey chocz also. haha.

met up with my study gang when i was back yest in singapore. glad to know everyone is doing fine. shuen is leaving for her exchange and thus hope everything will be fine for her over there. it was fun chatting with them. the food at ministry of food (bugis) was quite good also. so can give it a try if u want to.

next up was the release of the results. i took 5 modules for sem 1. the sequence of the results was as such:

aa102, aa201, aa203, ab214 and ac208.

i was expecting only an A for aa102 cos my project grade was only a B. i was surprised to see an A+.
similarly, i was expecting only an A for aa201 as my coursework was only A-. i was surprised to see an A+ again.
i was expecting only an A- for tax cos i really found the paper tough. my coursework wasn't fantastic also. once again, i was surprised to see and A. it seemed like god gave me a free upgrade of results for these 3 modules. haha. let's hope this is not my last upgrade in ntu.
the only A+ grade that i was expecting was from ab214 as my coursework was good. and once again, i was surprised that i only got an A. thou it doesn't make any difference at all when calculating ur gpa.
i was also expecting an A for company law as i tend to do well for essay based exams. finally god downgraded me and gave me a B+. it seemed like it's a curse that i will never get straight As (which include A-, A and A+) for any sem in ntu. haha.
but overall, i was happy with my results. hope next sem will be better and let me break the curse, thou i think it's not really possible as i m taking 7 modules next sem.

tired

2007-12-14T01:24:00.000-08:00

i m feeling damned tired now. mentally tired.
had a ns briefing in the afternoon, followed by a meeting at katong area in the evening and another meeting at harbourfront at night.

let me do a bit of update.

went for my 1st ever ns briefing and it turned out to be a disappointment. we were told that our original unit will be 'broken up' and used to top up other divisions' ns unit. so u can tell which r the reserve division and which r the important divisions. it's quite sad to c everyone going to different unit. i was taught that the saf respected unit integrity. some how or rather, this unit integrity gave way to higher order. the next 'sian' thing is i m going to a unit that's half way thru their ns cycle. for the next 3 yrs, it will b bn exercise, followed by atec 1 & 2. it's such a huge jump and big change in environment, esp given the different nature of trg we received during our nsf times in 6sir. personally i feel that it's a bit too much to ask for such a huge adjustment for both the men n the commanders that join the new unit. i don't know how things will turn out to be like. I am expecting the worst so that any positive experience etc is a blessing. next ict will be in july which clashed with my professional attachment.

the weather is damn irritating. thur was a super rare day where it rained only in the late evening. the sun was gd from morning til late afternoon. if not for the ns briefing, i will definitely go for a swim. i hate running/exercising in the monring. this means that i can hardly get some decent exercise since last mon n tue. this is bad and i dont think i will be able do well for my ippt. guess it's really time to start going gym. the rain is not going to stop but i need to exercise.

i have also being reading up on investment related stuff and it's pretty interesting. I am currently reading abt warren buffett investment strategy. will be trying to apply his principle soon and c how things turn out to be like.

I finally went back to nuh to volunteer again. it's again a pleasant experience. there's only 4 patients for this wed session as there's less than 10 patients in the ward which is a gd thing cos it's festive season now. no gd to stay in hospital. can tell that the patients really enjoyed the card that zc taught them to do, while i try to help out along the way. tt's our style of working cos he's better in art work so he wil do the teaching while i will help the patients.

went to APSN Centre for Adults (CFA). it's my first time there. had a meeting with the APSN consultant and the APSN executive director. it was a nice meeting and certainly v fruitful one. i have a better understanding of the operations of CFA, especially with rgds to the different projects that they have in mind to try to help find employment for the people of CFA. i can only say that we have to do our best to help these people integrate back into the society and find employment for them. it's a noble cause and im liking it. I am currently helping out in a social enterprise project by the CFA. hope it wil turn out to b successful

As i get more involved in nuh and apsn, i really felt that i prefer not to be involved in sch-related activities. i considered undergraduates as a very fortunate grp of people who can help themselves. so i don't c much value add in the sch activities.

okie,i m really mentally tired. need to go slp le. have a nuh xmas party for the volunteer at 5pm on fri. hope it will be fun =)

"kill the fats" fitness plan

2007-12-03T18:44:00.000-08:00

i made a mistake. haha. the previous entry post was actually my 200th post. it doesn't matter anyway.

life after exams is simply wonderful. the 4 days immediately after my exam was great as my dear managed to get leave to keep me company. it's always nice to spend time with u baby. im looking forward to 11 dec where we will go for the wine appreciation course together.

so unofficially, today marks the first day of my holiday where i spent the day alone.
so what does holiday means to u? for today, holiday simply means slept until 1pm, den lunch, den a punishing 50 laps in the pool.

hope this is a good start to my 'kill the fats' fitness plan. benchmark for this plan is to get rid of all my visible fats ard the waist, build muscles, see abit of abs and at least a silver for my ippt at the end of dec. don't think i have enough time to train for gold but i will try my best.

i guess i aim to swim 80-100 laps per wk (ie 2 days in the pool), at least 2 days on the road running (most prob will be doing interval training), at least 1 day in the gym (thou i wld prefer 2 days) and daily regime of at least 20 pull up, plus 40 dips. im still considering if i would want to go back for my taekwondo training or sld i put aside taekwondo and let it just be a past. i still cant really get over all the corrupted and ugly scenes from last yr ivp competition. let see how things go ba

lastly, my muscles are aching now but it feels shiok to ache. at least i feel healthier =)

1 more to go

2007-11-28T01:15:00.000-08:00

finally the day has came.
everything has to end n everything will end in another 14hours time when i step out of that exam hall.
i don't want to think how i will fare for this exam. i just want to go out n enjoy myself, enjoy my bdae, enjoy my holiday and enjoy my precious time with my dear as she will be busy with her work in dec.
my dear say i have became rounder (hope my english is correct) and i guess it's really time to do something about my fats during this dec.
too much studying is no good. this is my take-away for this semester.
i will do a final review of my sem when i get my results though i don't know when is that.

read a lot of the dragon boaters' accident. even though i don't know them personally, i felt sad for them because they are dedicated sportsmen who have a great future ahead. each of them have their own qualities, talent n knowledge that will see them go far in life. these are the people i admire. just hope that we could all learn from this lesson and prevent such accident from happening again.

hope tmr will be a better day for all. world peace and everyone living happily. no death, no quarrel, no stock crash etc.

it's WAR time

2007-11-22T00:34:00.000-08:00

in about another 12 hrs more, i will officially step into the exam war zone.
it's going to be a tough war tt will last until 28 nov.
i had trained hard for this war, so hopefully things turn out fine.
anyway, i knew i had tried my best alr.
yup, so bring it on man

nowadays,schools engage in very interesting form of fund-raiser for their own sch.
today, some students came to sell ice-cream at my doorsteps, claiming tt it's to raise funds for their school. the ice-cream costs $15, thou i din get to c what's the ice-cream like as i was in my room. i thought moe has being giving schools a lot of money? the education budget has always being v significant as u can see from the hundreds of scholarships that moe gives out every yr. it's almost like the scholarship money is free. then again, i realised that there has being an increased number of charity shows recently for different charitable organisations.

somehow, all these episodes of events made me think that the world lacks money. everyone needs money. while i do understand that charitable organisations need money to maintain their existence so that they can help needy people. but i guess there's a limit to how much they would need and i certainly do not hope that these charitable organisations have too much cash in their banks which they don't really need (ie it's just spare cash)

this made me thought of the Ren Ci hospital case. thou i m not very sure about the details, if i m not mistaken, the hospital made some interest-free loans to 3rd party. i hope i got my facts wrong. but if im right, i really questioned the need to raise so much money for Ren Ci annually. is it to help the patients, or to allow the hospital to make interest free loans to 3rd parties?

it was also reported on the New Paper (if i din remember wrongly)that there's this beggar at Waterloo St who can collect up to a few hundreds bucks per day from the public. This is what i called excessive donation.

i guess im pretty apprehensive abt how donations. if i were to donate money to anyone, i have to be convinced that they really need my money to survive on a daily basis.

i saw the China Premier on the news. he looks quite friendly. tt's just a comment.

lastly, b4 i go to bed. this is my 198th blog. my aim is to write my 200th blog on 28 nov to mark the last day of my exam war. haha

time to slp liao.

wish me lucks for my exam later. i think i need quite a bit of luck

knowledge is scary

2007-11-17T00:45:00.000-08:00

i was studying tax law today n it suddenly dawned upon me how scary a knowledgeable person could be.
there's no denying that the world is v knowledge-based nowadays. like what one of my gang (thou i cant remember who) said: one of the reason y tuition is so well paid is because there's a transfer of knowledge. n this is just a simple eg to show how much people value knowledge. u can also see that as the top organisations use top remuneration package to get the talents they want.

when u have more knowledge than the person next to u, u r always at an advantage n u can manipulate the situation to ur advantage, simply because u noe more than that person. n of course, tt is based on the assumption that the person is able to apply his knowledge to his benefits.

a lawyer can manipulate his way ard the way better than a normal person. an accountant can read the financial statements better n avoid being cheated by those companies who put up false accounts etc.

knowledge is really scary when u have it n when u put it to devastating effect, exploiting it to the fullest, at the advantage of others.

knowledge is also the way out of poverty n bring u up the social ladder.

okie, enough abt knowledge. let's talk abt cars.

i have sort of decided that i will be satisfy with just a honda civic. cos it's quite a stylish car, with decent performance, decent leg space for everyone, doesn't cause u a bomb at ard 80k. it's quite scary to think abt spending 200k plus to get a car. this is esp so when i m going to b trained as an accountant, when i know that depreciation of the car is crazy, u can hardly get any tax benefit for buying car (not when the govt is discouraging people from buying car) and most prob u can get better returns from investing the extra 120k if u just buy a honda civic.

if ur annual rate of return is 10%, that's alr a cool 12k, enough for u to fly the 1st class suite on A380 (if i m not wrong) or a decent holiday in europe.

so here's a pict of my 'realistic' car

then again, if i really have too much too much cash that i don't know how to spend,
i dun mind the following 2 cars.

mercedes slk

bmw 6 convertible

that's all for today.

back to my books. i wan to b a 'scary' person =)

Red alert

2007-11-15T17:39:00.000-08:00

finally i was sick of studying n i decided to go for a run cos i felt fat.
can feel the fat ard my waist n i dun like that feeling
i ran for 30mins. hrm, mayb i sld say i jogged for 30mins
n i declared that i felt like dying.
my knees were like jelly, i cant walk straight, i had a bad stitch, my breathing wasn't smooth
nothing was gd abt the run, except that it woke me up n told me that if i continue to neglect my fitness, i can kiss my $200 (i don't dare to dream of $400 now) gdbye come dec when i take my ippt again.
as i was running, i saw some kids. n i concluded that kids nowadays r really suffering from obese problems. lost count of how many 'not so slim' kids i saw as i was running.
i used to b like them n i will b like them if i don't start to get my fitness back.
i guess it's not too difficult to allocate 1 hr every other day (if not everyday) for some exercise, just to maintain some decent fitness so that i have a decent fitness level come 28 nov when i start my devil training.
decided that i don't want to work full time (ie 5 days a wk 8 hrs a day) during my dec holiday. want to get my fitness, my abs n my muscles back and also to spend some time at home. i want to go back to nuh to volunteer n start going back for my tkd trg. it's also time tt i start to really contribute to ksaa. so i guess i have enough things to keep me occupy in dec. however, if anyone has those part time job lobang, like being a promoter etc for a few days, pls jio me k. i don't mind earning abit of pocket money
okie, time to go bath n back to my books

1st review of the current semester

2007-11-06T23:45:00.000-08:00

this blog was inspired by kaiwei. haha, so i shall dedicate this blog to him.
i guess my semester didn't start off as well n smooth as i wished to, with regards to the modules i wish to take.
n the tax module is officially the hardest module i have taken thus far in ntu. it's tougher than IT, thou i m expecting more than a B for my tax simply bcos everyone is struggling together with me. haha, so the playing field is level, unlike IT.
ab214 (business communication) is gd n i sld get a decent result for that module. think i have done enuf to earn an A for tt module.
this is the sem where i got all B n B+ for my project/assignment. but i guess i m expecting those grades, esp the 'B' for my accounting II project. i knew it wasn't well done right from the start. in fact, i still don't have a clear idea of how i sld approach the project, so i guess a 'B' was reasonable.

this sem is really v xiong academically so much so that i have really neglected the non-academic aspects of my life. i din go for my taekwondo training for the whole sem, i don't think i have contributed alot to my keppel committee as much as i have wished to. i din really manage to go back to nuh cos there's only me n zhichao n carn really do alot of things. it's partly due to our terrible sch workload, which simply clash with our volunteering timeslot.

on a side note, i will be submitting my application form for local exchange to smu for next sem. hopefully i can get a slot. im quite looking forward to it n getting out of ntu for a while. hopefully, the different culture in smu can complement my learning in ntu n make me a better person overall.

i wish i was god

2007-11-03T02:31:00.000-07:00

i just read the new paper (the fri issue).
i saw the news abt 3 uk tourists refusing to give a trishaw driver his due reward for bringing the 3 of them from 1 place to another. in fact, according to the article, the tourists made the driver looked like a beggar n they claimed that the driver was slow.however tt was understandable as it was 1 person carrying 3 persons on a trishaw.
up to now, the 3 tourists had not paid up the 15 bucks due to the trishaw driver.
how i wished then, i was god, then i can make sure that the 3 tourists got their own deserts and i will definitely make them learn their lesson in a painful n unforgettable manner. it's simply a disgrace to bully an old uncle who is just trying his best to earn a decent living. having money doesn't give u the right to bully the poor. how i wish spore govt can stand up n fight for the rights of such poor people bully by the foreigners or that there's a law in spore tt allows us to deal with such f*** up people. yet, having said so much, i guess it's not realistic for spore govt to tell uk govt to get the 3 f***er to pay up or to enact any relevant law.
hence i wish i am god.

recently, some other f***er urinated in my block's lift and it made the lift stink like mad. the town council put up a notice to discourage people from urinating in the lift. honestly speaking, i don't think tt's a gd deterence. if fact, i can foresee someone trying to challenge the town council's notice by urinating in the lift soon.

on another occasion, there was this guy who smoke in the lift.n my thoughts were if there's a sign tt tell people u will get fined for smoking in a lift, but there's no people going ard trying to get those who smoke in the lift, den y bother to put up those 'fine' signs??

that's when i wish i am god. i would make the person licked his urine off the floor of the lift and also shut the smoker in the lift until he finished inhaling all the second-hand smoke he created in the lift.

how i wish i am god.

i doubt being an mp would be able to solve such small issues that many of us faced on frequently. perhaps being an mp can solve. i certainly hope so.

we simply need to make this world a more considerate place to live in. the sad fact is that as we advanced and be more educated, we become more selfish n tend to think abt ourselves first.

doom for failure

2007-10-14T16:36:00.000-07:00

i was too busy recently and hence couldn't really find time to blog.
was a bit surprised that this is my 193th entry. wonder when will i hit the 200th entry, given my hectic schedule since the mid-term break. nowadays, i slept for abt 4 hours plus per day. there were days when i slept for 5 hours plus cos i was simply too mentally exhausted. despite sleeping so little, i was amazed that i still couldn't finish my work. i wondered if the workload was simply too much or that i have became less efficient. only god knows.

recently, my tkd president told me that the proposal of getting a MP to grace the NTU TKD Open 2008 was rejected as the event wasn't a big event and there will b too much costs involved.
i was abit disappointed and i can foresee the start of a real downfall in tkd in ntu at least.
it has always being our pride that tkd is considered a ivp-level sport. however, it was removed from the ivp list a few years ago. ntu tkd were stripped of all its ivp status and priviledges like guaranteed hall places. this is despite the fact the we have being winning the competition ever since it was considered an IVP sport in early 1990s.
i told the school sports director that if we want to get back our ivp status, we must make the competition great and make it important. 1 way that i thought of is to name the NTU TKD Open Challenge trophy after a famous person and invite the VVIP to grace the competition.
my reasoning for that is as follows: ntu dragonboat and soccer team are accorded the ivp status since their sports are classified under the IVP Status in Singapore Sports Council (SSC) despite the fact that they are not a consistent winner in the competition year in year out. their challenge trohpies were named after the Prime minister and the President of Singapore. With such a strong backing, i don't think SSC will ever dare to withdraw dragonboat and soccer from the IVP status. so ntu tkd will stand a better chance to regain their ivp status if the competition has similar backings.
therefore i was disappointed by the lack of initiatives and tons of excuses from the school. really too disappointed.
wonder if you guys are aware of the Singapore University Games competition. As the name suggest, it's a competition that only the Singapore University can take part and it consists of a few games like soccer, basketball etc. i think that competition is crap, a total waste of money cos only 4 schools can participate as of now. i don't think that we will ever see a total participation of 10 singapore university, simply because of the fact that we will never ever going to have 10 local university, given our pathetic land resource. therefore i questioned the rationale of having such a competition when there's alr an IVP level competition for them.
i think it's a stupid policy and perhaps that's one of the reasons why Singapore can never go far in the world sporting arena. i hope im wrong. i will be really happy and surprise if such policies can really make spore a sport power-house in the world and perhaps qualify for the World Cup (3 more years to the 2010 World Cup aim, let's "HOPE" we can make it)

inspiring

2007-09-27T12:54:00.000-07:00

i attended a talk yesterday.
The speakers were the executive chairmans of Yakun International and Qian Hu Corporation.
it was quite inspiring to listen to their experience, the way they do their business etc.
I came away from the talk with a inspiring quote from Mr Kenny Yap, Executive Chairman and M D of Qian Hu.

"Successful people don't do diferrent things. They do things differently"

i thought that this quote is very true and applicable in everyone's life if u ever aim to be a successful person.

to end this blog entry on a lighter note, let me share with u another quote that one of my keppel fren told me yesterday.

"Work-life balance is when your work is your life and your life is your work"

should i

2007-09-22T01:18:00.000-07:00

i received an email from the school.
the email talked abt the off-campus recruitment talk by Goldman Sachs and that 55 slots have being reserved for both 2nd n final year students. an invitation was sent out to selected students to send their CV to the school by 24 sept so that they can forward the CVs to goldman sachs. GOldmans sachs will then send an invitation to the students that are selected for the talk.
i went to their website to have a better understanding of the kind of characters they are looKing for. I believe i have a decent idea of how to 'sell' myself to them.
but i wonder if i sld send in my CV.

this email made me thought of 1 thing.
i remembered that i wanted to convince myself of my ability back then when i came out of army. n tt's one of the reasons y i applied for a scholarship.
now that i had being awarded 1, i believed that i have what it takes to convince local home-grown listed companies that i have the ability.
since i have to source for my internship next yr, i was thinking of using this chance to c if i have what it takes to convince world-renowed companies like goldman sachs, citibank etc that i have what it takes to be part of their organisation.
if i manage to get an internship at any such company, i will have a better idea how far my ability can take me to.

but i have a question. am i being v bad by making use of such internship to gauge my own ability, given the fact that im under a scholarship. i know that i run the risk of getting myself into a big dilemna if i got offered an internship n a job (plus buying out of my bond) to work at a company that's alot bigger than my current scholarship sponsor.

even if i were to reject the job offer, i would have a better idea of the kind of firms that i can apply to, if i choose to work for another company after i have fulfilled my bond obligation.

my internship next yr is perhaps my only chance for me to gauge my own ability and to try out other industries to c if they are my cup of tea.

pls give me some guidance.

making a difference

2007-09-14T00:06:00.000-07:00

i had lunch with the assistant dean of NBS (accountancy) today. it's the NBS way of getting to know the students better.
The prof was asking if i was involved in any school activities and if i was a student leader in nbs. i told her that i wasn't. The school does encourage the students to be student leader.
but will u b making a difference if u were a student leader? whose lifes are u making a difference to? do those people require you to make a difference to their lifes?
as i get older (n hopefully more wise and mature), i dun c much value in being a student leader and trying to make a difference to the lifes' of the student population.
the futures of the undergraduates are so bright. it doesn't really make much of a difference if you are there to help them. their future will still be as bright as before. so are u making a difference? and is this difference that u make important to those lifes?
As i get more involved in volunteer work, i believe more n more in being a servant to the community, to help people who really need your help and you are really making a DIFFERENCE in their lifes.
suddenly, my volunteering works take precedent over my other cca (mainly tkd) because of this reason. i still enjoy helping out in nuh, helping to communicate with those patients who are mentally not so stable. i c that as making a real difference.
i m also starting to get involved in keppel volunteers' programme. for those who are not aware, keppel's adopted charitable organisation is APSN (association for people with special needs), Delta school etc.
we were discussing during meeting that one of the most important things for this group of people when they grow up is financial independence. this would mean finding a job and earning money which may not b a easy thing for them, compared to undergraduates. so we were exploring the idea of trying to find employment for them within keppel group. i like this new initiative and i can foresee myself being v involve in this meaningful initiative as i can c myself making a DIFFERENCE to their lifes.
i was sharing my view that the young APSN kids could reach out to other people who needs help more than them. my rationale is that, while u need the society to help u, it doesn't mean that u can't give back to the society as there are definitely less unfortunate people than the aspn kids in spore and in this world. in fact, i think by getting them to help otheres, they can learn that they are not so unfortunate after all. this will increase their self-esteem and confidence. in fact, i think all charitable organisations should try to help each other out , rather than just wait for help to come to their door steps. u can take from the society but u need to give back to the society. if i become influential enough like gerard ee, perhaps i can try to implement this big plan of mine.

a fatal 'B'

2007-09-12T16:01:00.000-07:00

when i received my yr 1 sem 2 result, my nbs senior alvin told me that getting a 'B' for my IT module is v painful for people like me who has the potential to get dean list.
it was only until yest that i realized the meaning of that sentence he told me.
it's confirmed that i din get my dean list for yr 1 and i was so close to dean list. 'so close yet so far' should be more appropriate in my case.
all it takes for me to secure my dean list is to get a 'B+' for that IT module and i would have gotten my dean list.
i remembered that it was one of my new yr resolution that i maintain my academic excellence while i strive to build up my 'life' experience by participating in various activities be it in school or other organization. getting the dean list is the benchmark i set for myself.
it's quite a sian feeling to find out that i was so close to attaining my goal.

i guess fact is a fact and all i can do is to work harder for yr 2 to try to make up for my disappointment.
this is only a small setback and i will b back stronger than b4.

disappointed

2007-09-05T01:45:00.000-07:00

I went for a interview just now. it was an interview to be a student ambassador for the Ministerial Forum 2007 to be held in NTU in oct.
i was disappointed by two things.
first, i was told that the roles of the student ambassador is to help the main comm in the execution of the event and this entails helping out in logistic, reception, security and ushering. so i concluded that any tom, dick n harry can be a student ambassador and apparently to the student union, this is the meaning of student ambassador. if we were in the army, this would be known as the sai-kang party rather than being known as the army ambassador. so i m annoyed at this crap. can't an young adult differentiate between sai-kang/student helper and student ambassador. i must say ntu student union has done a very gd job in giving such a nice name to such a shitty job.
next, my interview was scheduled at 9pm and it lasted for a total of about 5min. the interview went like this.
'so i shall now brief u on the roles of the student ambassadors. they are to assist the comm by helping out in logistic, reception, security and ushering'

'do u have any experience with handling events? '

'thank you for coming down for this interview and we will notify u shortly'

these were the gist of the interview and this is one of the most lousy interview i have ever went thru. in fact, none of the student-conducted interviews in ntu impressed me. while i do not expect such interview to be of those standards that i went through for my various scholarships, i do expect a bit of substance in each interview. or can someone tell me that such expectation is too much?

the student ambassador interview was a total waste of my time and i have more or less lost faith in any interview of whatever nature that's conducted by students.

what a wk!

2007-08-20T20:29:00.000-07:00

if i could sum up my last wk's activities, i would say: 'eat, sleep, breathe and dream keppel'.
i had meetings on tue and thur night. i attended a play that's subsidised by keppel. it's called 'hitting on women', R18 rated. it's my first play and i realised that i m not an 'arty' person. while i admitted that the play was humourous, i found it hard to justify the price tag which is $15 per ticket after heavy subsidy by keppel. i prefer movie thou it's not too bad to attend such play once in a blue blue moon to try to catch up with the 'arty' side of me.
sat was preparation and set up of the vertical marathon venue at One Raffles quay from 10am to 8pm. sun was the actual event and i was there since 6am. finally, everything ended and we had a 'celebratory' brunch at brewerkz. it was a nice place and the company was gd.
i must say that it's the company that i have in the committee that keeps me going on and i can understand y all of them are scholars. they have proven their ability by having to juggle their heavy work commitment with the ksaa commitment. i guess that's the main reason why i chose to take up the appointment of director (special projects) in the next ksaa committee. i enjoy working in a vibrant committee.
i gave up the chance to run for appointments in the NTU banking n finance club as i wanted to have a different experience. i guess it's not often that an undergraduate can say that he or she holds an appointment in any outside organisation committee and i think such experience will value-add my undergraduate experience.

aside to my buddy, i would say that an important chapter of our life has passed. and up to this moment in time, it's considered the best time of our life. and i can understand that it was the best time because u had me as ur buddy. haha.

aside to kaiwei, i like the way u think abt ur future. and i strongly and seriously believe that u have what it takes to achieve all ur goals in ur life.

aside to mel, hey ger, u are flying off to US in a few days time. it has being great knowing u through the nuh volunteer activities. me n zhichao will definitely miss ur laughter. i can c that u r growing up, from girl to a matured lady. pls take gd care of urself in US and feel free to talk to me online if u have any problems k.

finally, back to my books. hate it that i have to do so much catching up work alr even thou it's only the start of 3rd wk. this sem doesn't look that promising. will b a miracle if i can maintain my gpa.

perseverance

2007-08-09T15:45:00.000-07:00

i was watching the army show on channel 8 and i have some thoughts.
in the show, felicia chin told bryan that she will persevere in her pursuit of bryan's love and she told tay ping hui to give up her and dun persevere on in wooing her. bryan told felicia that her efforts will go to waste and not to persevere on.

life is weird. when u like a ger, u will tell the ger that u will persevere and hopefully, one day she will be touched by ur perseverance and efforts put in. at the same time, if there's a a girl that like you but you dun like her, you will tell her that it's impossible between the 2 of you, tell her not to persevere on and that her efforts will not pay off. my point is, if u can persevere in ur pursuit of some other gers, who are you to tell someone else not to persevere in the pursuit of the things she wants, even if the 'thing' could be u.

1 shot 1 kill

2007-08-01T09:59:00.000-07:00

haha. did my ippt today at maju camp.
1 shot 1 kil!. i cleared my ippt with a silver.
and this is the first time i tried the electronic system for ippt and i think it's not bad. pretty gd investment by saf.
n there's 1 big surprise for me! i jumped 239 for my standing broad jump and this is totally unexpected. the worse thing is since i only expect ( n i will be happy) to jump 225cm, my 2.4km training is such that i aim to do 2.4km in 10:30min.
so i was abit sian to realised that i jumped 239 for standing broad jump cos i knew i would miss out on my $400 since i totally din train for it.
now that school term is starting soon, i dun think i will train to go for gold. wrong timing. perhaps next yr ba.
can't wait to get my hand on my new running shoe so that i can start my marathon training soon if my knees can take it. it's still my wish n dream n goal to finish 1 marathon.
at least it's $200 in the pocket and no RT for me! mission accomplished.

basketball

2007-07-30T01:08:00.000-07:00

I played for keppel shipyard today in the keppel inter strategic business units games.
it was a gd tournament through out until the end where 2 teams from keppel shipyard met in the 3rd/4th place match. and one of the senior management from keppel shipyard told both the teams that we shouldn't fight against each other. so he 'cance' that match.
the referees weren't happy abt this as they felt that it is sign of no sportsmanship which i agreed too. however, i was too lazy to argue on and i was there just to play ball, thus i dun wish to get into such arguments. no need to do that. well well, at least in the end, i got my wish which was to play in this tournament.

1 more wk to sch reopen. time flies. life is so contradicting. as much as i dun wan sch to start, i want time to fly faster so that my dear can come back to my side asap. it's being so long since i hug and kiss her. went to this shop called 'made with love' located in PS to get some stuff for the gift that im doing up for my dear as part of her welcome back cum anniversary gift. it's a nice shop which i strongly recommend everyone to check it out thou i must say that the prices are not cheap.

3 more days to ippt. hope i can at least clear my ippt (which means dun fail my standing broad jump as it's the only thing that will make me fail ippt). once i clear my ippt, i will buy my new running shoes thou i have not decided on either new balance shoes or the tried n tested DS trainer.

i also need to get mp3 player. do u think i sld wait till the IT fair in end aug to get my mp3 player? will there be any discount or there will just be more freebies? any advice from anyone?

crystal jade palace

2007-07-28T00:21:00.000-07:00

today was a gd day for me. managed to keep myself very occupied.
went for a career photo shoot in sch in the morning before meeting carol wong at 2pm to discuss abt my financial planning.
it was a very enriching and enlightening session where i gained quite abit of knowledge on financial planning, CPF, details of medishield and DPS. I was too lazy to read up in the past.
she did an analysis of my current financial situation, my goals etc. it was very professionally done and i definitely felt safe in letting her come up with a financial plan that will suit my needs.
after all, she was a keppel scholar, the top NTU accountancy grad for her yr and also the top grad for the chartered financial consultant course so she definitely knows her stuff.
so to all out there, if u need a financial planner, i can recommend you to her. sometimes it's gd to plan out ur financial goals and target.

after the meeting with her, i went to meet up with kian huat, alvin, judy, cythnia and Mei Mei for dinner. we had dinner at crystal jade palace.
oh man, tt place is crazy. this is the first time i had a meal on the 4th floor of taka. normally it's always at those basement restaurants / cafes.
we din eat alot.
1) some peking duck appetise ( 2 slices of duck, with alot of duck skin, wrapped with those popiah-like skin)
2) winter-melon soup with crabmeat and some other stuffs in it
3) 2 roasted pigeons (which i find the meat v tough, so not tt nice)
4) vege (v normal vege)
5) noodle

these dishes costed a total of $348 for 6 pax. aunty judy and co also bought a peach. the price of the peach is $19.50. this is the first time i ate such an expensive peach. the taste is really different from normal peach. it basically melted in ur mouth when ur tongue touched the peach.

i felt that the 3 of us (me, kian huat and alvin) are very fortunate to have 3 aunties (judy, Mei Mei and cythnia) that doted on us so much. it's basically to the extent of pampering us. i hope i have the chance to repay their kindness towards me.
they certainly made this internship of mine at keppel shipyard more enjoyable.

driving

2007-07-23T21:44:00.000-07:00

since i got my driving license in nov 2006, i have only drove once for a short dist.
n finally, i managed to drive for a much longer distance yest. i drove from my hse to west coast and back to JE.
i also managed to get my dad to teach me how to park without the poles.
it seemed to be quite easy. thou i must say that i need for practice.
practice makes perfect.
i have sort of identify my cca for next sem, or sld i say, for yr 2 instead.

i will try to get my black belt, be adviser to the next tkd ivp comm, and be involved in BAF club and also the NTU investment club. these are all in addition to my nuh volunteer commitment (hopefully we can change our volunteer schedule to fit our timetable) and my ksaa executive committee commitment ( i will be holding an appointment as part of my professional development thou i m not sure what will the appointment b)

i guess these sld make my yr 2 life v v v busy. hope i can cope with it.

stay tune to this blog if u want to know abt my dream cars for different stages in my life =)

a night of too much alcohol and great company

2007-07-19T23:33:00.000-07:00

spent a night at ks hse yest, together with zhichao and we had alot of fun.
me n zhichao brought melissa to bukit timah food centre to have dinner cos she never being there b4. after which, we chilled out at liquid kitchen. i quite like the atmosphere der. will try to gO back one of these days.
after we sent melissa home, we went to upper thomson to have prata b4 heading back to ks hse to chit chat and drink.
it's really quite amazing at the fact that we cld actually talk thru the nite and we chatted on alot of things like cars, women, love, family, studies, career, army etc.
most importantly, the 3 of us drank alot. n it's really alot.
we finished a small bottle of baileys, almost half a bottle of vodka, some barcadi, whisky, some china alcohol, a bottle of wine.
we got so high and ks started to video down the scene where we interrogated zhichao abt his true love. haha. it was so funny.
ks taught us this game he picked up in china beer festival and it's quite fun. definitely a game that i will intro to others and play again.
we drank from ard 1am to 5am. and at 5am, we couldn't walk straight alr. yet, we were still thinking of going to eat fishball noodle at 5am. haha
but we din go in the end, cos we felt like vomitting.

it was an enjoyable night and i am glad that i have ks, zhichao, edgar, jack, kaiwei, luke, j bay, zhongwei etc as my frens. these are frens that will stand by u and share both ur happiness and sorrow and throw in some advice if needed. thanks guys!

i kept drinking water today as i felt v dehydrated. den it dawn upon me that i sld really go get an insurance policy. i have never being so drunk since 6SIR initiation and i finally understand y they sae when u drink, dun drive. alcohol really affects ur judgement negatively. it's definitely hurts my liver and i think i will avoid alcohol for a period of time after the crazy drinking session last night.

lastly, i can't imagine i actually went for a 25 laps swim in the afternoon, despite my dehydration. i was quite crazy. haha.

fitness

2007-07-18T00:29:00.000-07:00

i did 40 laps in the pool on mon and i was feeling v tired on tues.
my muscles are tight, perhaps it's bcos i din stretch my muscles well after swimming
or sld i sae i din even stretch my muscles at all after i was done with my 40 laps.
nontheless, i managed to drag myself out for a run.
did 3 rounds of 800m at ard 4mins per round.
next, with after abt 1 min rest, i did 6 rounds of 400m at ard 1 min 45 sec per round. this will translate into a 10min 30 sec timing for 2.4km which is considered not bad for my standard.
pretty satisfied with my level of fitness n i guess it really helps alot in my 2.4km when i stop running long distance for my 2.4km training.
fartlek is more useful, it's not as time consuming as long dist running but it's more intense which is gd.
it's exactly 2 wks to my ippt test day. hope i can clear my ippt n get silver. hope my jumping don't fail me cos i m pretty confident that my running is at least a silver standard now.
for the next 2 wks, i will up my fartlek intensity (depending on my knee condition) and hopefully i can go under 10 min for my 2.4km
if i manage to clear my ippt on 1 aug, i will go to queensway to get my new DS trainer as i formally retire this current ds trainer that has served me so well for the past 3 yrs.
let's hope for the best!

this holiday

2007-07-17T00:58:00.000-07:00

i declared this holiday sucks to the core.
totally disappointing.
initially i tot my holiday was ok.
it was ok from 7 may to 30 jun. during that 8 wks, i got to do my internship which is v fulfilling cos i learnt quite a bit. i was involved in the works of ksaa which is what i wanted to and i had the chance to organise the scholarship ceremony. i was also sent on a leadership development programme in OBS and i went on board a rig on 30 jun. it was a busy but fulfilling 8 wks and i was glad to have such a 8 wks.

but things went downhill since i stopped working.
perhaps it's bcos i have too much time to spare.
actually my goals for the 5 wks before my sch term starts were
1)train hard and get silver for ippt
2)try to reduce my body fats and get my abs out
3)to have a gd bball competition at the keppel business unit games
4)do up the gift for dear
5)learn more abt investment and wine
6)finish the bk that i bought last yr
7)go overseas for holiday

i guess goal (7) was one of the more important goals for me cos i really need a gd holiday to chill out.
however, as of 17 july, i officially declared that my dream of going on an overseas holiday is still JUST a dream n nothing but a dream.
it seemed so hard to go on a holiday with my 4g gang, largely due to the money issue.
it wasn't so much of a money issue when it comes down to the GANG, it's more of a time problem. how nice would it be if the back-pack trip came true. haiz..

i m really sad and disappointed that i can't go on an overseas holiday so much so that i declare this holiday a total failure.

to my buddy, if u r planning for a holiday in dec, and it's convenient for me to join u, pls let me know k. as long as it don't fall between 10 to 14 dec, i m fine with it. i m fine with anywhere, as long as i get out of spore. thanks buddy!

in the meanwhile, to make up for the fact that i cant go on a holiday, i will go on a spending spree. this wld mean transfering more money to my dear's acct so that she can help me buy more stuff. hope this will make me feel better

initiation

2007-07-10T22:43:00.000-07:00

i was at pasir ris park last wkend cos ksaa managed to book a keppel chalet there. we planned to initiate the new scholars but less than 50% of them turned up and more than 50% failed to reply the sms that i sent on tt afternoon.
how should i put my disappointment? i guess i shall not elaborate further ba. some of the ksaa people should know my feelings.
n i dun understand y people can dun turn up at the very last minute? is this a trait of keppel people?
once again, so much food was wasted. so sinful lor

back to the initiation of the new scholars into keppel. once again, i felt abit disappointed. perhaps the benchmark of initiation was set when i was initiated into 6SIR. no doubt, it's not a v pleasant feeling to drink so much n b the clown for the night
but i guessed it's a memorable experience for all my fellow officers that went thru that initiation and it's something that u can look back n laugh at.
tt's my definition of initiation.
then again, perhaps that's the difference between army n keppel ba.

went to visit my grandma today. i was counting and i think it has being abt 3 years plus since she has stayed in the old folks home. i have always wanted to ask her if she did ever blame her children for putting her in a old folks home.
it was only this wk that i realise it cost abt $1.2k per month to put my grandma in the old folks home.
suddenly i have a desire to earn alot alot of money. then i will perhaps top up another $1.8k per month to engage at least 1 nurse to take care of her so that she can go back home and dun need to stay in old folks home.
if i were to continue to stay in keppel, i wont b able to do that, not for the next 5 years, cos keppel wont pay me so much.
how how?
im quite lost now. really hate to see my grandma in old folks home and it's officially one of my goals to send her back home to stay. i hope i can do it and i hope she can wait for me.
she was eating her cake this afternoon when i visited her and she even offered her cake to me even thou tt's all she has.
i dun noe how to describe my feelings

m i pushing my body too hard??

2007-07-04T18:20:00.000-07:00

finally i went to book my ippt. to the gang, i m taking ippt on 1 aug at maju camp. so if u want to take too, pls feel free to join me.
i started my training regime this wk. it has being 3 days already and i am wondering if i pushing my body too hard too fast.
i swam 35 laps on mon, did my biceps and triceps training on tue using dumbells. for today, i did my shoulder training using weights, followed by 30mins of run, followed by a fartlek training. for my fartlek today, i did 200m in 45secs and jog for 200m. this is considered 1 set and i did 6 sets of this.
result of the past 3 days of training = i m super shag, or should i say, i m v shag immediatelt after the fartlek. is this normal??
mayb i m starting to understand what they mean by 'while u need to train ur body hard, u need to let them rest too'

1 yr ago, during my keppel group scholarship final round of interview, the chairman of the selection committee told me that he can help me go anywhere i want in NUS. at that moment, the only question that was in my head was 'wah, who is this man?'
1 year had passes and i finally got my answer.
the chairman is Professor Bernard Tan.
pls click on the following link if u want to know more abt this man.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bernard_Tan

somehow or rather, i m glad to be able to convince this man of my ability so much so that he awarded me the keppel group scholarship.
let's hope i wont't let him down.

2007 keppel grp scholarship ceremony

2007-07-03T22:20:00.000-07:00

after much preparation, the day finally came.
this yr scholarship ceremony was held in keppel reflection bay showroom.
it's a very different setting compared to last year's event where we had it at mount faber.
i guessed the only big complains were the terrible weather, the black n white tentage which wasn't very nice looking. other than those stuffs, i guessed everything went on quite smoothly. it's presentable but definitely far from perfect.
i didnt get to mingle much with the guests so didn't manage to get their comments.
hope the scholars have fun and it's memorable for them.
n hope that they can make the 2008 scholarship ceremony even better, after this experience.

just a side note, singapore's weather is really getting terrible. we are all victims of our own lifestyle. we should have been more environmental friendly. i can really feel that the weather is turning from bad to worse as the time passes.

lastly, hope everything will turn out fine for this wk bbq for the ksaa people

What a last day!

2007-06-30T11:56:00.000-07:00

firstly, a very big 'sorry' to all my readers out there. I know i have not been updating my blog with due diligence. I will try to update more regularly from now onwards.

today is officially the last day of my internship and i guess there's no better way to end it than to attend a naming ceremony.
some background info: whenever keppel complete the building of an oil rig or a ship, there will be a ceremony whereby the owners will name the rig/ship and bless it, after which all guests are invited for a tour of the rig/ship n to the buffet spread available.

As such, i went onto this rig called the West Prospero. it's my first time going up onto a rig and i m so excited abt it. because i guess it's not an everyday event that u will get to go on board a newly build rig. more importantly, i think it's quite ashame to b an offshore/marine scholar if i have never step onto a rig.
the rig was majestic and i think mankind are really great. i was so fascinated by the way all the pipes, equipments etc are joined together to form part of the rig. it was an engineering achievement and this is a good testimonial to the brillance of mankind. thou i must admit it's not always that this brillance of mankind is put to gd use.
i took quite a number of photos. hopefully i will get the photos fast and i can post them on my blog. i wld strongly recommend everyone to go on board a rig if u guys have a chance to do so.
next, the food was wonderful too. it's an international buffet with free flow of ben n jerry ice cream. the door gift was a crystal block with the design n name of the oil rig encraved in it.

on the whole, i m pretty satisfied with my internship and i hope to get a gd break now before school starts. for those who want a short getaway (even if it means going to sentosa), pls let me know k. i will b more than willing to join u guys!

OBS 7-9 Jun 2007

2007-06-25T20:36:00.000-07:00

back from OBS

2007-06-10T21:31:00.000-07:00

i m back from OBS!!
obs was fun, thou i missed some parts of the camp due to some ksaa work.
so effectively, i only took part in 3 activities.
the most enjoyable activity was the sea expendition where we kayak for 15km.
however, it's also this obs that led me to some thoughts.
it's supposed to be a ledaership training camp.
my first qn was what's the criteria to be selected for this camp
it's said that this camp is for human development n for those who have shown the possibility to take up higher responsibility.
however, i wasn't v impressed by most of the participants simply for the fact that a leader needs to have initiative n dares to take risk n to lead others in time of risk.
while i noe it's not fair for me to comment so much on their ability as i din join them thru out the camp. but i was abit disgusted by their lack of initiative when the instructors were trying to get pple to volunteer to b leader for the sea expendition.
i understood that it's a daunting task to be a leader for things u never tried before.
but isit life that way. to be a true leader in a big corporation n to get the company to move forward,
a leader dare to take the risk to lead the followers in events/circumstances that no one faced b4
in the end, it takes the youngest of them all (which is me) to volunteer to be the leader together with another lady.
i must say even the instructors must have felt abit sian abt the fact that no one wants to volunteer.
i mean it's a leadership camp. it's meant for u to practise leading n not to b afraid of failure.
but sadly i dun c that happening.
let's hope there will b improvement in the future for dem

Go Green!!

2007-06-06T20:26:00.000-07:00

today, i was at AMK hub cos i went to the ntuc hypermart to give away keppel sponsored green bag to the customers shopping at the ntuc.
i was attached to a cashier n it's an unforgettable experience.
actually it's not easy to be a cashier too.
i was only responsible for packing the stuff into the bags and i found it to b not an easy job.
n once again, it's proven that singaporeans like free gifts..n some are quite greedy too..
yet at the same time, it's heartening to c how some (thou it's a minority) people actually brought their own bags to put the stuff they bought.
as least they bothered to do a part in trying to save this earth..
there's this guy who sort of like complained that we are making things difficult for everyone when we try to persuade them to bring their own bags. his arguement is that even US n china are not having these kind of practice.
at that moment, i m not 100% confirmed if china n US have such practice, but i felt like telling him that if he dun like what's happening in spore, he can jolly well leave spore for US n china.
no one will give a damn abt these type of self-centered people.
or at least i wont.
n it's quite scary to c that quite a pecentage of shoppers r those that bought over $100 worth of products at 1 go. the kind and amount of stuff they bought r quite crazy.
the worst of all is a grp of secondary sch kids who spent almost close to $200 solely on cup noodles. reason being they are having some camp.
it's quite pathetic to eat so much cup noodle during camps.

well, this blog summed up my experience standing behind the counter in ntuc. guess it will be a once in a life time experience cos i dun foresee myself doing that again.haha

OBS

2007-06-05T21:33:00.000-07:00

to all my beloved blog readers,

i will be going for OBS from thur to sat evening with keppel group personnel.
it was a rather last minute thing as i was only informed abt it on tue..
i m pretty happy with the things i m doing for this holiday.
internship, organising scholarship ceremony n vertical marathon, going for OBS and playing for keppel shipyard in their inter SBU games.
if i can have an overseas holiday somewhere in july, it will be wonderful.
it will be like a dream if i can c my dear in july..
n to edgar, i dun think i can join u for a holiday in june..not v nice to postpone my attachment, eso when i have alr taken quite a few time off from my work to settle my other keppel -related stuff.
to kaiwei, i do hope i can join u in taiwan. but i have to c how things go first..
time flies, in another 3wks plus time, my internship will b over n it will be time i start to train for my ippt n hopefully i can clear it before school start in early aug

return of the condor hero

2007-05-27T22:37:00.000-07:00

since my dear went to US, besides immersing myself in keppel's activities n work,
i have spent quite some time watching the return of the condor hero..
watched a few episodes everyday..quite nice..
the show remind me of a lesson that i have learnt in my life
which is not to make promise to anyone easily..
dear told me recently that i have fulfilled all my promises to her n i m happy that i have achieved that..

i m quite busy recently..so busy that i don't have time to go for my tkd trg..guess i have to postpone my grading again..
but it's a gd experience organising the 2007 keppel grp scholarship ceremony n also helping out in the keppel inter SUB games..
i m also playing for one of the SBUs...hope it will b a memorable experience to actually take part in the games rather than just helping to organise the event itself..

went to visit my grandma today..guess she's in a gd mood today..
n her actions made me v touched..as i tried to feed her, she sae i have not eaten yet n she wan to feed me..
grandma has a wound on her leg..hope it recover soon..n hope it dun get infected..

in a few hrs time, it's the start of the next wk n for this coming wk, i will b quite busy..
mon is gym, tue is bball trg, wed is ksaa meeting. next up, i have a dinner with the gang on thur. in between, i have to schedule a few time slots to meet up with the various vendors for the scholarship event n also to meet up with the new scholars to brief them abt the video filming for the scholarship ceremony..

i miss my dear dear..really miss her alot..

my dear left me for US liao

2007-05-16T17:50:00.000-07:00

took leave today from work to send my dear dear off to US...
she should b in taiwan airport waiting for for flight to US at this moment..
hope everything will b ok for her...
meanwhile, it's time i start my exercise regime..to get back my body..i lost my 4 packs partly cos me n dear have being going ard the island hunting for nice food recently...
dear dear, pls take gd care of urself k...muackzz

what a wk!!!

2007-05-13T12:11:00.000-07:00

i never have such feeling b4...i wanted time to stop!!!
to stop at this moment so that i can still c my dear everyday...wake up to her sms, c her gdnight sms.going out with her...
it's really a race against time...so much so that i actually wanted to take both tue n wed off from work jus to spend time with her...
but i guess my mentor is kind enuf to let me off for wed liao..
so i think i should not push my luck too far...
sorry dear for not being able to give u a nice memory/surprise b4 u fly..
i try my best to give u one when u come back k..
i have some idea
but i need time...hope u dun mind...

i read the news just now abt the injured spore soldiers in taiwan n i realise they r from our unit..n that camp was the camp our unit first went back in 2005...it was a tragic accident but i guess u can't blame anyone for such accident...jus hope the injured personel will recover from their burns n other injuries...

i saw the other new abt a HCI student punching a bus driver cos the bus driver confiscated his gf's EZlink card when he realised there's some thing wrong with the card...n the boy's father went down on his knees in public to plead for forgiveness...
is there something wrong with our education or even the society??? i tot the boy was a real disgrace to HCI...really disgrace..i just dun noe how to describe how disgusted i felt..cos he punched someone who is even older than his own father n he din stop despite the other passengers in the bus telling him to stop...
while i believe in giving a second chance to people, i guess the student should be severely punished for his act...for hitting an elderly..he need to learn his lesson...
wonder what kind of punishment will he get???

my first day at work

2007-05-07T18:29:00.000-07:00

today is my first day at work..
hrm..i will describe the experience as a bit overwhelming..
the learning curve is super steep..partly bcos of the fact that i m only a yr 1 student so there's alot of things that i dun noe..
thus i would say everything is on the job training..
n they certainly do plan out a pretty challenging program for me...
have to complete 3 projects on my own using my newly acquired knowledge...
it's only 2dae that i realised what's being taught in school is only the tip of the iceberg..
the knowledge u need in the workplace can be quite different..

my mentor was the financial controller..n i was pretty shocked to have the FC as my mentor as i tot he will be too busy to mentor me..
perhaps that's the reason y i have another mentor: a senior accountant..
i was given my own office..thou i will have to share my office with another two ntu yr 2 students starting from next wk..
n perhaps it's bcos i was given my own office, so i m not v close to the staff there except those that guided me..n the office was quite quiet..
it's either bcos my office is not v near them (so i carn hear them talk) or they really dun talk to each other...

n i finally understand y they sae u will become fatter when u start working...
particular for me..i dun like to exercise at ard 5plus 6...but by the time i reach home, it's alr 5plus 6...
must find a way to motivate myself to do exercise even if it's alr 5plus 6..
if not i will definitely grow sideways...

today was just abit of hands-on..will be starting my project tmr..
hope it will turn out to be ok...
the food der is not fantastic but since it's only 2mths n i only eat 1 meal everyday, i guess it's not too bad...
on the whole, i guess it's quite an experience working in a shipyard, thou it may not b v glamorous...

hope tmr will be ok=)

the day finally arrives

2007-05-06T21:34:00.000-07:00

in another few hrs time, i m gOing to slp..
by the time i wake up tmr, i will b going for my internship at keppel tuas shipyard..
only know that i will be going to the finance department..
but i dun noe what m i going to do...
the feeling of the unknown can b quite scary
but i guess it's a stage that everyone has to go thru
it jus happens that i m going thru this stage earlier than my peers..
can only pray that the internship will turn out to be fine..

went to geylang to eat on sat with my dear..
it's my first time at geylang...haha..cos it's quite out of the way..
glad to be der with my dear..
we had so much fun observing pple n oso eating the nice food..
n we ate alot..spent a few hrs eating..haha..
come to think abt it..i only have slightly more than 1 wk left to spend time with my dear..
sob sob..
time really flies man..
how i wish i can stop time at this moment..

my first time cooking for dear

2007-05-04T19:45:00.000-07:00

today marked the first time i cooked for my dear
n the special occasion is our 1 yr anniversary..time flies..
thou i din cook any very challenging dishes, i dun dare to declare my dishes a success..
the gou tie n crispy chicken was a bit burnt..the egg dish was v well done..
the sambal kang kong was quite a failure..
my dear cooked sphagetti..quite nice..
at least i put in effort n i will try harder the next time..hee

so glad that my liverpool is once again in the final of the Champion league...
my dislike for mourinho is on the rise..this guy simply duno what's meant by humble n he dun dare to admit he's not tt gd..despite the whole whole critising chelsea performance in the second leg..
n he dared to call liverpool a small club..so chelsea aka the BIG club sld b ashamed that despite spending a few hundreds million pounds over the past few yrs carn even make it to the champion league final...
when the small club aka liverpool, despite not having the luxury of spending a few hundreds million pounds r able to reach the champion league final twice in 3 yrs..
like what steven gerrard sae 'such result is not bad for a so-called small club'

next i was disappointed at the way man u gana thrashed at ac milan..
not tt i expect them to win at milan but at least have the fighting spirit like how chelsea fought on at anfield..i expect more from a soon to b crowned EPL champion..

felt disgusted at gattuso's comment that liverpool is a 'long ball side'..while, ac milan does play long ball at times n chelsea was the one playing most of the long ball in the second leg..
n i guess gattuso had forgotten that it's this 'long-ball' team that ac milan lost to in the final 2 seasons ago..
so if he carn even beat a 'long ball side', den mayb he sld consider retiring..

i m jus pissed that not many people r giving liverpool their due credit..
i guess liverpool's achievement for the past few yrs in the champions league should make people realise (if they have not) that soccer is a team game..no use of having individual stars who carn play as a team..
thou i must admit that liverpool dun have glamorous individual flair players or stars, but their teamwork more than make up for this deficiency as they have proven..simply bcos it's not luck that made u reached champion league final twice in 3 yrs..

hope liverpool will win..n gattuso shut up his mouth..

jus a side point, i quite like kaka, partly bcos he's a humble guy..focus on his games n dun really criticise other teams..

mummy is great!!!

2007-04-30T23:31:00.000-07:00

jus finished my battle with exams today..
it was a tough battle n i think i tried my best..
hopefully the result turns out to be ok...

den in the afternoon i learnt cooking from my mum
it's only then that i realise it's really not easy to cook 4 times a wk n 2 meals a day all yr round..
the preparation phase, cooking phase n cleaning up phase...
everything is not easy lor..even the simplest dish...
so to all out there, if u mum cook regularly, pls appreciate her effort k..
it's hard to imagine life without a home-cooked meal..

yup, that's all i wan to say for 2dae..

malay wedding dinner

2007-04-29T17:06:00.000-07:00

as of now, there's a malay wedding dinner going on at the void-deck opposite my block..
firstly, i wonder it's a malay tradition to hold their wedding dinner at the void-deck cos i tot with the advancement of this nation, void-deck wedding dinner was a thing of the past liao..

my second question is do they have to play their music so loud that even thou i m staying of the 10th floor opposite, it seems like i m blasting music in my house instead..
that's how loud their music r n it can be quite irritating..don't their ears felt the pain?? n dun they find it hard to talk to each other with the music blasting away like mad n carn they be abit considerate towards the others.

this is not a racist blog entry..cos i would say the same thing even if it's a chinese wedding dinner..

i felt tempted to call the police but i din cos i dun wan to spoil their wedding dinner..but given that i m a super patient person who doesn't get irritated easily, this only goes to show how irritating their music is.

it's being so long since i went to visit my grandma..
i think the last time i went was 1wk b4 exam ba...i felt so bad...jus hope exams end asap den i can go visit my grandma..hope to visit her daily from next mon onwards until i start my internship..guess this is the way to make up for the past few wks of absence ba..
duno if she still remembers me anot..i doubt so cos i haven being visiting her for so long liao..

n lastly, to all my beloved blog readers, esp my GANG, anyone of u interested in running ahm 07 n when u guys wan to take ur ippt???

let's hope miracle happen again

2007-04-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

i spent my whole sat nite watching soccer..from 740pm onwards cos i was too sick of FM liao..
n i was disgusted by liverpool first half display..the argentine central defender jus sux n none of the players r interested in playing..
mayb cos they knew that by playing in this game, most prob dey wont b playing in the champions league semi final...
the defeat was a disgrace n let's hope rafa can make up for this disgrace by winning the 2nd leg against chelsea n proceed to the final of the champions league (n i hope man u lose to milan)..
think a rematch of 2005 CL final will b nice..
come on liverpool! we can create the istanbul miracle again..
my ideal ending to this season will b man u winning the league, give chelsea the FA plus league cup n liverpool the european cup..

hope things turn out this way..
can feel the time ticking away..
xy left 2dae, which means hj, apple n christ r leaving soon
den my dear will b leaving for US too..
it's like a rush against time to spend more time with my dear, esp given my internship..
i m alr starting to miss her liao..

donut factory

2007-04-19T01:40:00.000-07:00

recently, it has being brought to me about the existence of this shop call the donut factory.
saw some of the types of donut the shop sells online jus now..
suddenly i remembered that in oct 06, my marketing project was on donuts where my group highlighted the potential of a donut selling shop in singapore that operate on similar concept as krispy kreme.
my tutor say that this is a not very gd project n we got B for that project.
n now in yr 2007, donut factory opened its store in raffles city n their donuts r selling like crazy..
how i wish i m the person that open donut factory den i can make my tutor eat his words.
i jus love to prove people wrong..
thou i m not sure if donuts factory will last for a long time anot..but at least it's very very very popular now..singaporeans r food loving so i think there's a high chance they will survive..
however, one thing for sure, singapore market dun allow more than 1 existence of such fanciful donut shop..
i shall go queue up one day after my exams..
anyone wan to join me??
n btw, dear all blog readers, does anyone has any recommendations for a nice romantic place for 2 to dine??

civil service pay

2007-04-12T02:09:00.000-07:00

i really enjoyed the debate in the parliament regarding the pay of the ministers and the civil service on the whole. and i must say that it was a surpirse to have the PM donating his pay rise...thou i admire that cos i think that's what a true leader should do..lead by example..but this doesn't mean that i m expecting the rest of the ministers to do the same thing....

cos i understand from the PM's point of view.the ministers and civil service pay really need an upward adjustment..however to show that he understood the increasing income gap and the displeasure that arose as a result of the pay rise, the donation of his pay rise for 5 years is a gd move..thou i dun noe how singapore will react to it...

next, let's talk about the pay. first of all, it's gd to be transparent..
second, top calibre people need to draw top salary or at least a reasonable salary...this is the basis of attracting top calibre people to lead singapore..however i m not expecting their pay to be equivalent to that of CEO...

jus imagine this scenario...assuming the minister pay is now $1.6million...person A is a top calibre talent drawing a salary of $3 million in his current job in the private sector..is it worth the pay cut to have the chance to lead singapore and do things for a honourable cause???
how much can a person spend?? do u mean that u have to earn $3 million in one yr in order to sustain ur lifestyle?? i think a salary of $1.6million enables any one in singapore to live very very comfortably...so what if the pay cut amounts to 7 million over the course of 5yrs (1.4 million x 5)...r u going to spend that much???

if person A is not willing to take such pay cut to have the chance to do something for singapore, then he is not qualified to lead singapore n be a people's leader cos he has no passion to serve..money is too important to him compared to the chance to serve the people...do u wan such leader to be ur MP?? i think singapore would be beta off having someone of similar talent and capabilties (or even slightly lower capabilities is ok) but with the passion to serve the people...these are the type of people that will bring singapore forward...

i m fine with the adjustment in salary...it carn lag too far behind..n such things carn drag on forever..becaused it will snowball into too big a gap to close...thou it's also sensitive when u r increasing the GST and the civil service pay at the same time..given the widening income gap...

just a curious thought, are the ministers and MPs satified with their pay b4 the pay rise??? then again, this is a sensitive question that i dun think anyone will have an ans...

if i was person A..i will take the pay cut to lead singapore..cos it's a once in a life time chance to do something for the people esp when u will have the necessary power n authority to make a difference and leave a legacy...it's challenging and i like challenge!

new template = new beginning??

2007-04-11T12:43:00.000-07:00

finally..luke's wait is over..albeit abit late..
but luke, i believe it's worth the wait right..cos finally i gave in to the gang's nagging n request to change my VIRGIN blog template..
carn blame me la..i m a sentimental guy..n i will always treasure my first blog template..haha..
guess everyone in the GANG is busy, except egdar who is busy playing in taiwan...haha.
must meet up after exam k..
when r u guys done with ur exams??? i finish on 30 apr..
since it's a new template, i hope it's a new beginning for my blog..
shall try to blog more often to keep u guys entertained.

to ascertain my own value in this world

2007-04-08T02:50:00.000-07:00

went out with the 4g gang to holland v for a meal to celebrate the mar n apr babies bdae...
was walking across the carpark in holland v when i pointed out to ben the mercedes slk n BMW 6 series parking in the carpark..
told him that 2 cars are my dream cars...den he sae my dreams r really dreams..
at that moment, i was wondering if he was thinking that i would never make it big enuf in life to own a slk or a 6series or he dun have the courage to go dream abt owning that car n working towards that goal..
true enuf the cars r really not cheap..but 1 thing i believe is if u work hard n u noe what's ur goal, u will get there one day provided u r determined enuf (which i believe i m)
one reason to believe tt i have such determination to achieve my aim can be shown in the effort i put in to brush up on my swimming..
have being mocked by ben n co abt me being an offr tt carn swim...
i made the resolution tt i want to be able to swim confidently by this yr n i m glad to sae i have achieved it..
it's all abt effort..i swam twice to thrice a day..often eveasdropping on those swimming coaches in the pool n practice n practice..
nowadays, i will at least do 30 laps b4 i call it a day at the pool..
when i told the gang at tcc that i wan to earn 12k a mth, ben laughed at me...n sae i was dreaming again...
was thinking abt that when i went home..n i realised something...
besides the desire to climb up the corporate ladder to prove i can do it n cos i like challenge,
the other reason y i like the challenge of landing a job at Mckinsey is to ascertain how much exactly i m worth..
i dun believe i m jus worth 2k plus per month...
i guess this can b sae abt me getting the scholarship too..
while the main reason is to lessen the financial burden on my family n to secure a job tt's challenging n to be at a big conglomerate tt's as ambitious as me...
the other reason which i realised only now is that i believe im of scholarship quality n i wan to prove it to myself that. i wan to ascertain my own value...
i learnt in intro to human resources module that employees use their pay as a gauge of their own value..n i truly understand it now..
it's not so much of the job now..
even if i really gOt the job at mckinsey n is offered 12k salary n i reject the job offer to remain at keppel, i would b happy cos i noe i m worth at least a 12k salary..

dun noe if my thinking is right..to all, pls feel free to comment...cos need someone to correct me jus in case my thinking is wrong n i din realise it.

thx

my 10 yr blue print

2007-03-28T17:30:00.000-07:00

have being thinking alot these few days.
yesterday, my dear asked me if i am able to maintain my gd results n a firm like Mckinsey, Boston consulting grp or Citigroup makes a job offer to me, will i accept n break my bond..
hrm..some background info on Mckinsey..it paid the record NBS starting salary of $12000 per mth a few years ago to this ger from NBS.. n i believe BCG or citigroup wont lag too far behind.

back then when i signed my bond, i was excited at the fact that i m joining one of the biggest local conglomerate cos i want challenges in my life and to earn big bucks. but if 2 yrs ltr, i am given the chance to join one of the biggest companies in the WORLD and not just singapore, would i be tempted?? 2 things for sure, the challenges will be bigger and the pay will be much higher..hrm..i shall ans this question 2 yrs from now..haha..if it really happens, i guess it's a nice problem to think abt..

since yesterday, i have being thinking about how to measure success when we are out in the corporate world.. can success be measured based on the prestige of the company u r in, ur current appointment in the company, ur remuneration package or by experience...

of cse, i always believe success sld b measured by the experience one have n how he has matured..however this measurement is v subjective and it's not wrong to say that all life experiences are unique n hence everyone is successful..

then again, is remuneration package a gd guage of success??? i guess it is to a certain extent ba..

lastly, here's a question for all to think abt..if u have a starting salary of $12000..which car will b get

(1) BWM 3 series, Audi A4, Mercedes C180, lexus LS 250, volvo s40 ( all the cars in this catergory cost abt $140000

(2) honda civic, toyota camry, subaru wrx, VW Golf (cars in this category cost ard $90000)

i believe that cars in catergory 2 are also quite gd n it's important to note that given the price of each car in cat 1, one could buy a car in cat 2 n also buy 1 toyota vios for his sis or family to use..

price of some cars are really obscene man!

knowledge is power

2007-03-25T00:15:00.000-07:00

had being talking alot to dear abt how i will strive to b successful n the knowledge i wanted to gain..
CFA, CPA, masters in economics, MBA, law degree..n my dear asked me to work hard, thou she laughed at my dreams, saying it's not v realistic.
i dun noe y eva since the start of this year, i have v strong thirst for knowledge..
i dun know the exact reason until 5 mins ago when my dad was scolding my uncle, say he has became fatter since he lost his job.
i have 4 uncles n 6 aunts.
only my last uncle n my last aunt are holding jobs that pay more than 2k every month. among all my uncles n aunties, only my 5th n last aunt n last uncle have secondary school education. cos in the past, my grandpa thought studying is not gd, not useful n he rather all my uncles to help him in his farm. but he would never foreseen that life would change so much n the having a gd education can be so impt. i dun blame my grandpa cos i would not have such hindsight too.

n perhaps that's y i want to be successful n earns alot of money n knowledge is the key for me to do so..esp when we r in a knowledge economy now. dear,if u r reading this, perhaps now u noe y i have being dreaming all these while..dreaming give me the energy to move on in my life
because i dare to dream, i want to make my dreams come true..i m v focus n determined achieving my aim in life. n thanks for being ard in my life, dear

no one, no family is perfect

2007-03-24T23:57:00.000-07:00

i dun think i m wrong to say that everyone have feelings n ego..
n everyone willl b hurt by negative comments, no matter how numb u r to such comments, no matter how long have u being hearing the same comments.
no family is perfect. there's bound to be conflicts cos it's always difficult to live with people under 1 roof.
woke up this morning cos i heard my dad shouting away. my uncle had a fall n it's pretty bad. n he's grumbling away, (i dun wan to use the word 'scold')..den my aunt joined in. they are arguing which sin seh is the best n hence which one my uncle sld go to c for his injury.
normally, i dun get involved in such things.. i dun like to.
it's late at night liao. n my uncle dun seem to get any better which is not a gd thing considering he injured himself on a fri morning.
sometimes i dun understand y the older generation hates the hospital so much n choose to believe sinseh. i m not saying that sinsehs are not gd but it depend on the types of injury u r carrying.
i still remember quite some years ago when i was in secondary school, my grandma had a fall at the market n it turned out to be so bad that she could hardly make it home (in fact she carn) n she was sent to the hospital n it turned out that she had fractured her hips (if i din remember wrongly)..my point is some times a sinseh carn detect everything n if u fall so hard that u r not really able to walk n get out of bed by the next day or night, it's better to go n take x ray. if there's no serious injury with the bone or anything, den go c the sinseh lor..my uncle suggested that to my dad n he got a v bad scolding. how i wish i can say something. but my dad is one of the most stubborn pple i ever knew who always believe he is right..carn helped it.
my dad is not a bad person.. his only weakness is not sensitive to others' feelings n too stubborn..he cared alot for his family n is the most fifial person i know.
i guessed that shows no one is perfect oso, jus like there's no perfect family.

jus hope my uncle will recover fast..tmr my aunts are all coming n they will definitely have alot of comments to make

unbelievable

2007-03-22T01:43:00.000-07:00

i went to my elective lecture today and was puzzled y were everyone studying the lecture notes and it seemed like everyone were present 2dae. such scenario only happen when there's quiz. but i THOUGHT there's no quiz 2dae. n to my horror, i was told by the guy besides me that there'a actually quiz 2dae. n the quiz carried a 25% weightage..that's totally insane.
n i m so glad that i S/U that module. if not i would definitely leave the LT n dun take the quiz.
carn believe i was so blur.
in the end, i decided to take the quiz, since it's mcq questions only. i decided to put faith in my intelligence n my reasoning ability.
i hope it turns out ok.
praying hard.

my dreams

2007-03-16T23:10:00.000-07:00

i m proud to announce that the NTU TkD Open 2007 was a huge success..
n i must thank my committe again for their hard work n for making me look so gd as ur chairman for this committee..
the celebration dinner n movie was gd..jus simply glad that u guys enjoyed urself cos u guys simply deserve it..
las words to my comm: hope u guys felt as proud as me to be in this committee as i told u guys that we have initiated quite alot of new things into this IVP competition. we dare to make the difference n took the path less travelled!

recently, i enjoy gaining knowledge alot..that sounds weird coming out from my mouth..
i m curious y i carn start to do my CFA programe now that i m in yr 1 ( the pre-requiste is a degree or be in the final yr of ur study) n the reply i got is that the CFA coursework is comparable to a Master degree coursework n hence that requirement..

my plan was to get my accountancy degree..den get my CFA and CPA within 5 yrs after i graduate..at least that will make sure i remain employable n able to command a high salary..
den when i m financially stable, i will like to study for a law degree..cos i m studying business law now n it's so interesting..more interesting than accounting..den as i climb up the corporate ladder, having extensive law knowledge will b gd n it helps if i happen to go into politics etc or makes me even more employable..haha...den if i have time, i will get a MBA oso, jus for fun..

can some one pls tell me if i m thinking too much, or what i set out is actually achieveable and m i being to ambitious??

150th post...

2007-03-03T23:32:00.000-08:00

this is my 150th post..another milestone in my blogging career..

1 more milestone in my life..i fought in my first taekwondo sparring competition in the NTU Tkd Open 2007, formerly know as IVP until it's being removed from the ivp scheme...
but i must say it's even more competitive than the IVP scheme as i introduced the JCs into this competition too..

thou i lost my match by 2 points, i m satisfied with my performance as i noe i had improved over the past 2 months plus of training minus my leg injury n the task of organising this competition...but i have to admit i can do better than how i fared 2dae...

mayb i will try harder next time...

i m proud of my committee...for the past 2 days, i just hang around the competition area, doing nothing much except talking to the stf officials when needed and oso watching the competition...tt's a testimonial to the capability of my comm even thou it's only 9 people and the STF officials were so impressed that for 2 consecutive days, they talked abt asking me to get my team down to help them with the Singapore Open to be held in july which is an international taekwondo event...

tmr is the last round of the competition for the organising committee, i hope i can end this on a high note and make it as memorable to all participants as it is to me...then it will be intensive studying all the way till exams.

as requested by edgar

2007-02-14T23:57:00.000-08:00

ok..this blog is as requested by edgar cos i think he missed reading my blog..
so i shall blog now in order to satisfy his desire to know more abt me..haha
just realised tt it's being almost 6 wks since i last blogged..
was abit busy recently..juggling studies with competition training n oso organising the competition.
just completed the weigh in for my competition last sat and i must sae that it's a success on the whole and i was impressed by the efficiency of my committee..
n i managed to lose abt 6.5kg (inclusive of water lost) within 6 wks..
n i realised tt i m actually mentally quite tough to tahan 6wks of extremely strict diet..plus intensive exercising..think i m well on my way to fulfill one of my new yr resolution which is to have my belated 6 pecs..
competition is like less than 3 wks away and somehow i felt i m not prepared for the competition
in fact i m not prepared..wasn't able to train properly for the past 3 wks due to some swelling instep and toes injury..

finally managed to celebrate my first valentine day with dear and i will be going to her hse during CNY and she will b coming to my hse..hope things will turn out ok for the both of us..
the valentine day will b nicer if the sunflower bouquet is more chio...haha..i will try harder the next time..n we finally got our rings..quite nice..unique design...

n i need to tell everyone out there that my internship with keppel is from 7 may to 30 jun..
so if u wan to include me in any overseas holiday, pls try to schedule it in july k..
i seriously need a gd holiday b4 yr 2 sem 1 starts.

finally, let me wish all my blog readers a very happy valentine day and happy chinese new yr..

yr 2007 resolution

2007-01-04T11:59:00.000-08:00

fuck man..i typed my new yr resolution liao...
den duno y it disappeared...fuck blogger.com man..super pissed now

my yr 2007 resolutions are as follows:

(1) maintain my results and my scholarship

(2) aim to get into dean's list cos dun know wat's the feeling of getting into dean's list

(3) make sure NTU Tkd Open 2007 is a success

(4) achieve break through in my sparring and try my best in the 1st sparring competition of my life representing ntu

(5) get my black belt by july grading (die die must achieve)

(6) have an enriching internship with keppel from may to july and mayb try to be involved in the organising of the ISBU games and also take part in it...

(7) wish to go either taiwan, france, uk, koreo, japan, phuket/bangkok for a holiday in july after my internship...a backpack will do as well too

(8) achieve at least a silver for ippt (but my aim sld b gold!)

(9) must perserve in my weights training so that i can finally achieve a toned and well defined body, with 6 pecs too...

(10) learn something new, be it a new martial arts, dancing, investment etc...

(11) win the battle against acne n acne scars cos im so sick of dem liao

(12) keep up with my volunteer work, be it in nuh, MPS or other organisations

(13) never neglect all my frens, esp 4g gang, and my army frens

(14) spend more time with my family members and also my grandma

(15) treat dear dear better!!!

(16) participate in AHM 2007 and also standard chartered marathon in dec and try to do my best in both the runs

(17) most importantly, be happy and try to refrain from vulagrities!!!!

i will try my best to achieve all my new yr resolutions...

To lead, to excel, to overcome

year 2006 reflection

2006-12-31T15:03:00.000-08:00

how should i start???

the first thing on my mind is perhaps my ord in mar 06...glad that i orded and get out of that bn.but i was even happier that i managed to fuck the bn safety committee key appointment holders during the feb meeting before i orded..hope things have improved in the bn now that the stupid gary wasn't there anymore...no matter what, i must say i have learnt n matured during the past 1 yr i was based in the bn.

was looking back at the new year resolution for 2006 and i realised i achieved some but not all of the goals i had stated down back then in apr/may...

i embarked on my nuh volunteer journey...it was a pretty interesting experience dealing with the patients and i managed to pick up some skills along the way too like balloon sculpting and how to fold tissue flowers...but think the ward 12 grp is on the verge of decline liao as the conflicting schedules of all the volunteers make it v difficult to come together to org activities for the patients..i m guilty of this too as i din manage to go ever since i started sch as i have lesson on wed afternoon..

i remembered that i said i wanted to find interesting temp jobs and i gOt 2 temp jobs...
one is being a security guard at an IT fair for 2 days and i must sae it's a torture..din learn much....the other job is as relief teacher in clementi town sec for 1 whole term, teaching 6 classes...carn term it as total disaster as i made new frens there and i understood how difficult it is to b a gd teacher and that it's definitely not a career for me...some of the kids were cute and i will always remember the big farewell cardboard that my sec 1 express class prepared for me...think it will b the first n last time time i received such things from my students.

scholarships wise, i m lucky enough to be awarded 3 scholarships, naming Natsteel, Keppel and SMU scholarship....n i m glad that i made keppel my choice...i can c a bright future that awaits me when i graduate and perhaps even be the next keppel ceo like wat edgar hopes...haha
n it's thanks to the scholarship that i m now finacially secured...carn ask for more..

A freak accident that resulted in me dislocating my ankle in jun 18 meant that i carn run my AHM 07 and oso the full standard chartered marathon..thou i recovered well enuf to take part in the half marathon race in dec 06...quite a decent experience...n it always feel gd to run with a large crowd even if it means that i have to wake up super early on the race day...

i carn say i m enjoying uni life alot but i guessed i have achieved wat i wan to achieve for sem 1...
i remembered i told myself b4 that my yr 1 sem 1 will b considered a success if i can pass my black belt grading test in oct, my driving test in nov and my exams..i m proud to annouce that it was quite a success as i managed to clear my driving test and exams with flying colours, even thou i din manage to pass my black belt grading...the only plus point is i was selected as part of the ntu tkd fighters team and i m oso concurrently the chairman of the organising committee for NTU TKD Open 2007....i oso managed to represent my hall in IHG in basketball, albeit it's short lived experience as i gana a cut on my forehead at the end of the 1st quarter of the first match n it required 5 stitches thus ruling me out of the rest of the IHG games...

i guess the nicest thing that happened to me this yr is i managed to woo back the girl i like and to convince her to give me one more try...thx dear for willing to me us another chance...

my 21st bdae celebration was nice as i get to celebrate with differents groups of frens and thx once again to dear n my sis n everyone who played a part in helping to make the scrap book a success, despite the busy schedule that all of u have...it's the nicest present i ever received..and the 4g celebration was also nice....

a few regrets were i din manage to go on any overseas holiday, din manage to spend quality and quantity time with my loved ones and oso my grandma, din manage to learn cooking, guitar, blading, new martial arts and oso carn c my 6 pecs...

All in all, i guessed it's a good year for me...thx everyone for ur presence in my life..hope yr 2007 will be better!!!!

result day

2006-12-28T23:28:00.000-08:00

din manage to wake up in the morning...
i was feeling v cold at ard 8 plus in the morning (think i was sick) and hence i decide to hibernate..n i think i woke up at ard 12plus...another half a day gone...
den i woke up to check my results...
first time in 3 yrs that i m getting my results once again..
n it turned out to b quite decent...
dun think i can ask for more liao...
n i was thinking if i sld reward myself for the decent results...
c how things go lor...
dun really enjoy this holiday...cos i m not a 'rain' person...
n i was in pretty bad health this holiday...
haiz..jux pop 2 panadols again...
yr 2006 ending soon...will do a review on yr 2006 and oso my resolutions for yr 2007...
n i din noe earthquake is so powerful..can disrupt our lifes even thou it din literally happen on our land..
n i wondered how they built those cables at the bottom of the ocean...
so fascinating lor

entry #145

2006-12-23T13:04:00.000-08:00

wah...time flies man, this is alr my 145th entry...
which came as a shock, esp when i dun really blog nowadays.
went to maxwell food ctr a few days ago to try the famous tian tian chicken rice...
but it turned out to b a disappointment..think the one at tanglin halt taste beta, even winnie thought so too...
but then again, i must sae maxwell food ctr really have alot of good food.
the next chicken rice tat i wan to try is the super expensive chatterbox chicken rice..think it cost ard 20bucks if i m not wrong...
my wound is healing liao..think i can start proper training next week, haven being exercising for the past 1 week cos of the injury as i have to keep the wound dry..which is quite a chore..
this wk is xmas, going out with winnie ltr, meeting the army gang on 29 dec...
dun think 4g is going to have a gathering this yr for xmas unlike last yr...
haiz, abit sad lor, esp when i planned my celebration with winnie on 23rd dec so that we can join in any celebration that 4g might have, but apparently, not everyone think it the way i do...
hrm, shall wait n c what magic jy can conjur to gather all the 4g..
seems like a long time ago that i organised a 4g gathering

1st five stitches of my life

2006-12-19T00:03:00.000-08:00

haiz..my first interhall basketball match ended in 5 stitches on my forehead, near my eye brow...
disfigured for life liao lor...thou most of them sae i look more man with the scar...
so i must try to c it in a possible light lor....
i will try...
jux hope the wound recover fast cos i carn do much training with the wound ard as i have to keep the wound dry...
which is v sad lor, esp when i m such an active person n i m dying to get tanned n get fit n this stupid injury came to spoil all my plans..
hrm as for my taekwondo trg, i think i really have to train harder if i dun wan to make a fool of myself during the competition in mar n tt is provided i m selected for the competition cos there's quite a few brown belts ard...
xmas is coming n i can get to celebrate it with her...
so happy lor...looking forward to that day...

standard chartered marathon

2006-12-04T23:21:00.000-08:00

went for my maiden standard chartered run last sun too...
woke up early lor at 430am...the opportunity cost of the run is my sleep n also the liverpool match at 11pm on sat..cos have to slp early n wake up early...
hrm..the aim of the run was to complete the run..so i achieved my aim..
thou i felt that the running route was a bit boring cos we ran past quite alot of construction sites..so not much scenery to view..so abit sian..
n the baggage collection at the end was also quite messy...
singaporean did what they do best: monkey c monkey do..
no one bother to find out which queue is for which number group...
so in the end it's only 1 queue...disaster...
but the water supply was plentiful which is gd...
kept myself hydrated thru out the race...
post race: my knee hurt like crazy...think it's partly cos my body not properly conditioned n also my running pace was slow thus putting alot of pressure on my knees...
hope it will b ok...
next yr aim is to complete the 1st marathon of my life...
n to jio pple to pei me...haha

my wonderful bdae book from the ger i like

2006-12-04T23:12:00.000-08:00

winnie celebrate my bdae for me on last sun...
she prepared quite a few surprises for me in my hall room...
1st is a nice bdae cake den an interesting powerpoint slideshow...
next is the highlight of the show...
a nice book tt's handmade by her...as i was reading the 1st 2 pages, i have tears in my eyes...
really touched me a lot...i was quite speechless lor...
din know that she did so much things for me...
to gather all my family members, my 4g gang n my army click's wishing all in 1 book...
i wld sae it's a real big project lor, esp when she's having her exams too...
now i sort of understand how she felt when i pass her the book on 2 aug 06...
sld b roughly the same feeling ba
the meal at new york new york was gd cos of her presence...the food there is ok la..can eat...
wan to sae thx to all that contributed the notes to the book....
special thx to edgar, jy, jeff n enyu n not to forget, my wonderful sister....
i m jux gald that i have found u ger...in my life...
thx for all u have done for me....

21st birthday

2006-11-30T01:03:00.000-08:00

i m now officially an adult...
hrm...
had a mini celebration at home..had my favourite steamboat...
lots of ang bao n my dad did a gold pendant for me..it cost almost 300 bucks..cos real gold...
tt's quite expensive lor...felt bad cos my dad is not earning alot..
my godfather gave me a small golden key despite the fact that he's not so financially stable...
so i was pretty speechless when i saw the gold pendant n key...
thinking back, i was really quite fortunate to have such a caring family, esp my dad n my mum...
somehow or rather, i felt bad cos i don't think i treat them v well...
i promise i will treasure my loved ones alot more from this moment onwards...
n i want to say thanks to my sis for getting me a nice jacket...n also my buddy for getting me a nice wallet that i really like...think there's more to come..haha..i m still waiting
however, there's one thing i regret...i din get to spend abit of time with my grandma...i totally forget abt it cos i kept thinking that i need to go gym...i should go shoot myself for making such a mistake...
i swear i will go visit my grandma tmr...it's being so long since i last seen her liao..

hrm..finished my exams on mon...slacked for 2days liao..i guess i sld do something more useful, starting from 30 nov 06..
for the past2 days. i have being sleeping until like 10plus 11...n spent quite abit of time playing FM too...i must be careful not to b addicted to it...

lastly i want to say happy birthday to myself...
u r a big boy liao...need to grow up n be responsible for every thing u do that will affect yourself n more importantly others...

i promise i will b a better person that will continue to fly high, aim high but not forgetting my roots and repaying all those that treat me well cos without them , i wont b who i m today....esp my parents n family n also the special ger in my heart...

thx all for ur presence in my life...

update

2006-11-24T10:27:00.000-08:00

hrm...

ok for those who wants to get me a wallet, sweater or bag for my birthday, hrm....think u guys have to choose something else instead liao...

my dearest edgar n j bay have gotten me a wallet which edgar claims it's v nice..i shall trust his taste...

n my dear sis say she will either get me a sweater or a bag...

yup..tt's all for today...

1 last paper to go...gambate...

just for my buddy

2006-11-22T19:33:00.001-08:00

hrm..ok.this entry is dedicated to my buddy...

my 21st birthday wishlist (subjected to changes)

first on my list will be toyota vios and mitsubishi lancer...( i m willing to forgo all other present jux for this )

the rest are as follows (not in order of merits / desire to have them)
- braun buffel wallet ( i just like that bull...haha)

- liverpool jersey with Kuyt's name and number behind ( how can i be a liverpool fan when i don't even have their jersey?? so this is long overdue liao )

- g200 business bag

- a nice bag for uni schooling purposes

- a nice laptop bag that fits my fujitsu laptop well..(it's a 14 inch laptop, FYI)

- a nice sweater so that i can fee ur warmth while i m cold inside the lect theatre

- a nice leather watch to go along with my metallic Guess watch

- Zara / topman / g2000 vouchers so that i can go shopping during the dec holidays

- 1 yr men's health subscription (i lead a healthy lifestyle if u guys are not aware of it)

- a nice asics DS trainer ( it's time to retire my current DS trainer after my standard chartered 21km run. it has being a loyal servant)

- Cash ( i can never bring myself to reject this particular gift..provided it's of decent amt)

Special items
( these are items that i term as 'would b nice to have' and it will definitely makes my day )

so i proudly present to you my special items:

1) oakley shades

2) ipod video or ipod nano

hrm...i guess that's all for now ba...

so buddy, i gave u alot of choices liao..happy choosing=)

i m back again

2006-11-21T02:56:00.000-08:00

wah..exactly 1 month since i last blogged...
tt's quite long...haha...
having exams now...2 papers down, 2 more to go as of now..
hrm..think i m stressing myself over this exam ba...cos don't know what's the standard that keppel wants as it's not stated in the bond deed...
but then again, sldn't we try our best in every thing we do???
soon, the exams will b over and i can celebrate my 21 bdae..
hrm, did i use the wrong word ie celebrate?
cos everyone is busy with exams..so think maybe there's a chance that my bdae will b over just like that...
think i m going to pamper myself on my 21st bdae...
plan to spend ard 200 bucks to buy presents for myself...
haha..sounds pathetic..but never mind, it's ok..
jux passed my driving test last tue..so happy..
actuali i know that my driving skills is ok...my instructor said i was suay to get the 'Foo' guy as my tester...
tt's y i hate this kind of exam..cos sometimes it's not based on skills...but luck, if the tester is nice or he likes u anot...
still don't understand why i failed my black belt test...
but nvm, i will make sure i pass my black belt test next yr apr...
wonder if i sld upload my bdae wish list anot?
as not alot of people know i blog...
don't know la..c how first..
ok..i m tired..off to sleep liao

wat a lousy wk i had

2006-10-23T03:58:00.000-07:00

guess dis the worst wk i haf for dis yr ba
1st i got a B for my quiz and the tutor was not able to convince me tt his ans is correct...
next skb gave me B+ for my mkting presentation instead of A cos he sae i used too much 'ok' in my present n he admit he mayb bias...
i was too sick to argue back den but i told myself i dun need a gm of a hotel to tell me tt i m gd...
if i can convince a panel of senior management from keppel, the CEO of Natsteel, a prof from nus and 2 prof from smu tt i m gd enuf for dem, i dun need to prove myself to a gm....
m i too arrogant when i sae dis?
maybe ba...
den i fall sick from wed to sat....fever tt's on off...so xin ku lor...
n it affected my trg for the half marathon on 3 dec..arrrgggghhh
n i got e bad news tt i failed my black belt grading...sian diao lor...
den i aimed to finish stats case by fri but carn...
wanted to eat mac in sch on fri at 1030pm n tot tt it will still b opened...
but i guess when things r not going my way for e whole wk, nothing will go right
n i realised mac was closed at 9pm tt day cos eve of deepavali...
how suay can i get...
den jux now liverpool played like shit against man u...
i dun understand y tt sucks so much dis season when dey r supposed to b challenging for title
n it seemed tt every time i watched dem played 'live', dey sure lose lor...
m i a jinx???
guessed tt sumed up my wk ba....
wat a lousy wk...
hope next wk will be beta...
like wat i always said,
when u hit the bottom, the only way left is up...
i hope it's true for me

rate my life

2006-10-16T23:13:00.000-07:00

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	8.3
Mind:	7.4
Body:	8.8
Spirit:	7.5
Friends/Family:	5.6
Love:	7.7
Finance:	7.4
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

it's time to blog

2006-10-11T12:24:00.000-07:00

ok...slept at 5am dis morning n actuali wanted to wake up at 8am
thou i duno y i wan to torture my body n brain until litat
haha..but in e end my body rules and i slept until 10am...
hate life after recess...it's all abt quiz and projects....n throw in oso my black belt grading test and n soon-to-cum driving test...
n e exam is so freaking near n yet i dun haf a clear idea wat i m studying...
sounds quite bad rite???
it's bad!
n yest murphy's law came thru
watever cld go wrong went wrong yest morning
i woke up late for a appointment wif someone and i lost my specs while i rushed der to meet tt person...
i hooked e specs onto my jeans and for e 1st time since i can remember, my specs actuali dropped off
carn believe how suay i m lor...
but i guess it's fate tt such things happened...
cos actuali it's abt time tt i change my specs...
used it for ard 2 yrs liao....still using it cos i dun wan to waste $, esp when it's not high up on my priority list...
yup...as a result i got myself a pair of specs yest n oso 1 pair of contact lenses
n once again, i overspent for dis mth...bcos of e specs and contact lenses
i will try harder next mth not to overspend

in class now!!!

2006-10-06T09:02:00.000-07:00

i m soooo slack...having stats class now....n yet i m blogging...haha
but teacher late so carn help it la n oso i so long din blog liao
ok...teacher cum liao...shit..
gtg cos mux b a gd boy
I WILL B BACK!!!!!

it's being so long

2006-09-06T13:54:00.000-07:00

wah...i carn remember when's my last blog
tink almost 2 mths ago?
n yA i changed my blog add for certain reasons...so sorry for not informing u guys...
finali got started into my uni life...
v busy i mux sae...
taekwondo, tuition, living up to e scholar's expectation (ie i carn do badly in my work), relationship, hall...
but i guess at least life is enriching...
n i m looking forward to my new post...as e chairman of the organising commitee for the 2007 tkd ivp...
hope i dun screw things up n i guess it will b a gd learning experience...plus taking part in ivp...
ntu tkd club is a gd place to train...i mean it carn b too bad if u r e champion for e past 8 yrs since ivp started...
n actuali i m starting to tink tt double room n single room got its adv n disadv...
but ok la..i m contented wif my life now....
thou i m lacking in slp...but it's ok

is this true???

2006-07-20T14:07:00.000-07:00

Follow your heart when falling in love.
Follow your mind when its time to leave.

tt's e advice my buddy gave me...
thx buddy...

y m i so curious

2006-07-20T12:08:00.000-07:00

y m i so fucking curious????
curiousity kills e cat n spoil my mood last night
yest my mood was bad...or sld i sae i m feeling low...
cos i miss going out wif her or just c her face
so last night i din reali tok to her...
cos i wan to ignore...i dun like e feeling where i can tok but carn c e face or knowing tt e ban is still der
mayb last wk caused me to get addicted to meeting her...
so i wan to force myself to forget her....to lose dis addiction....
how i wish i can follow my heart all e time even thou sometimes it's wrong to follow e heart cos u will hurt others
but it's tiring to follow ur mind...
last night she asked me where is e concourse cos she wants to go der to get something
so i curious
so i asked wat she wants to get...
she sae lightsticks...den i guessed correctly wat e lightsticks r for...
but i still ask to confirm it...
suicide move...
cos i became v sad after tt...
not bcos i m jealous of her bf....
but cos i tot of my bdae last yr...
wondered how i wld spend my 20th bdae wif her if we were still together..
wat surprise will she gave me...will it b so xi xin like wat i did for her n wat she's doing for her bf now...
n e lightsticks...how i wish i got a chance to do it for her...
my heart sae i wan to c her
my heart sae i wan to go out n splurge today....
my mind sae i sldn't c her....i sldn't waste my money litat....
which sld i follow???
mind or heart????
can some1 teach me???
i m lost once again

THE DAY

2006-07-18T11:34:00.000-07:00

if last wk was a dream, i tink yest i tot i was in heaven ba....
but at e day went by, i was sent from heaven to hell....
fulfilled 1 dream n a promise yest....
told her tt actuali during e period when i cleared leave in feb, one of e things i wanted to do is to gif her a surprise by buying breakfast to her hse n to c e smiling face when she first woke up...
n i managed to do tt yest....
n e dream is abt me cuddling together wif e ger i like on a raining day, not wanting to wake up....
everything we did was so nice but still must wake up in e end.....
was reading my bk while she did her own things...b4 we went out to china square to eat...n to marina to shop....
as e day comes to an end, i was v sad, it's like knowing tt u haf to bk in but u dun wan to....
cos u dun wan wat's beautiful to end....
i still dun understand y we lost control yest of ourself....
guessed it's bcos for e 1st time since so long, both of us followed our hearts n not our mind....
when i called her at ard 9plus at night, she was giving me a cold shoulder n i sort of got e hint....
so i told her tt i will stop all dis stupid things.....den she sent me a email letter....
shocked to c e letter but not shocked by e things she wrote inside....
next we had an almost 3hrs tok on e phone....
i had tears in my eyes when i was telling her how i felt during e times when i was in taiwan....
i got e feeling tt somewhere in e conversation, she at least had tears in her eyes....
n finali she answered something tt i had always wanted to noe...
which is how she wld like me to react on 21 nov 05 tt night.....
she sae i gave her e feeling tt i dun like her enuf n tt wif e decision i made, she felt tt she's not impt enuf to me....
which is all wrong n i reali hoped i can turn back times n if given another chance i wanted to make her feel like she's a princess...
she sae tt for dis past few wks, i reali made her felt like a princess, e feeling was so intense tt no one ever gave her such feelings b4...
but i m not doing much i noe...
if given a chance, i wld reali like to make her feel like a princess.....
e chat was v long...but i m glad tt we tok abt our feelings from 21 nov 05 til now..
she told me tt she wanted some time to b alone to sort out her tots...
n sae perhaps she wont c me dix wk...
i granted her wish, even thou i hope she dun take so long...
i will b strong, i dun wan to make her worried abt me n i wont breakdown like how her bf will
but tt doesn't mean i dun like her as much as her bf does...
she was angry wif me for a while yest too cos i teased her for being short...perhaps i had really grew taller...
cos she really seemed abit shorter...but tt doesn't mean my love for her decrease...
it was fun trying to tease her den cheer her up, asked her dun b angry...
u sae u wanted to bring me to eat alot of things....
will we eva had a chance to do tt?
bcos i told u b4, e higher my hopes, e greater my disappointment will b...
tt's y i dun wan to tell u my plans for e period of time when i cleared leave

it's not possible to haf e best of 2 worlds

2006-07-15T19:01:00.000-07:00

went for facial on thur...
wakao, e extraction damn painful, almost wanted to ask e lady to stop...
she sae until like my skin condition super jialat...reali so bad meh?
dun care la...cos i noe recently i haf not being sticking to my face washing regime diligently cos i m abit sian...
so guess it's time to start taking care of it again...
i got alot of things tt i want to buy...
n with such a huge financial injection tt i got a few wks ago, i really got e temptation to splurge...
luckily i m controlling myself...
guess i sld sit down n write down e things i wan n c which is more impt....
i had being wondering if i had changed since i was awarded e keppel scholarship...
i hope i m still e old qiyang....i guess so ba...
woke up at ard 6:30am on fri morning to go send her to work...
cos i noe she's a bit sad tt she carn c me on thur nite...
n yA she was shocked to c me on fri morning...but guessed she was happy...
like wat she told me last night, wheneva she wan to c me, i didn't turn up...wheneva she's not expecting to c me, i will pop up from nowhere...
had a 1 hr 51 min 54 sec chat wif her last night....
nowadays, it seem tt we can tok abt anything under e sun, even those sensitive topics and we reali told each other how we feel....
if last wk was gd, i guess dix wk i was in dreamland....
saw her 3 times....felt like we were together again..even she sae tt she felt like a couple...
jux tt in real life, we r not...she sae tt e feeling is even beta den those she had back den when she was with me....
she sae tt it's being super long since she had such a wonderful chat with anyone...
basically i guess none of us wanted to end e conversation but it was getting real late liao....
she sae she's confused n ask me wat i will do if i was her...
i sae follow her heart, choose someone tt she can c future wif....
n i keep telling her e knight can only b a knight n neva a prince...
hope dis made her less confused...
jux leave it to fate ba

i learnt how to make tissue flowers 2dae

2006-07-12T23:45:00.000-07:00

yeah...finali went for ward 12 volunteer prog again after 3 wks of recovering...
glad to c dem again...n i learnt how to make tissue flowers...
quite nice...made 2 den a patient made 1 n gave to me...
so i decided to gave e 2 flowers i made to winnie cos i m meeting her after tt...
tink will b a nice surprise n yA she liked it alot...
n thx to e flowers i gave her, i got to send her home cos she got no more hands to carry for heavy stuff....
had abit of fun..haha...but i dun wan to blog abt it here...will keep e sms to remind myself of e nice moment...
had being meeting up wif her quite often...but tink wont haf much chance in e future...
dun ask me how i came to such conclusion...cos i oso duno..
but i guessed no matter how touched e princess is, a knight can only b a knight n not a prince...
den again, i enjoyed myself 2dae....

im tinking abt alot of things

2006-07-11T23:57:00.000-07:00

actuali i dun noe how to explain my tots now...
had a bad dream last night..dreamt tt my sis murdered someone n i m going to lose my sis foreva....n i hate e feeling...
den it made me wondered tt if i had treated my sis well enuf..
well it's true tt i bought her alot of things she like...but m i knowing her well enuf???
i guess der's alot of room for improvement...
while e dream reali scared me, at least it made me realise one thing...
i hate to lose any 1 tt's impt to me...
tt's y i sms winnie in e morning to tell her to take care of herself
cos i guess i dun wan to lose her too...
had dinner wif her again...
dix time at bukit timah...e 3rd time we had being der....
n e silly ger sae she got craving for western food...
n i managed to guess which western food she always eat...haha
e dinner was nice...in fact every moment i had wif her was nice...except for 21 nov night...
while i mux admit tt i still regret e decision i made tt night...
but i accepted e fact tt i can only b her knight n not her prince....
she sae tt she's a soft hearted ger....
i noe tt...she sae tt she's touched by my actions cos she sae even some bf dun do such things
but so wat if she's touched...
while i still dream i can make up for wat i did to her...
but i nvm wanted to cum in between dem....
i alr felt so bad tt dey quarrel often bcos of me....
but felt her bf sld b relieved at e fact tt she had chosen him...
n he sld haf basic trust in his gf...
envy him tt he got a nice ger...cos she's e type of ger tt u noe u can settle down wif n e type of guai ger all parents like to c....
n he sld noe every body has a past...
wat's impt is now n e future...
i jux hope dey dun quarrel so often over me or any other matter...
n mayb i can only b e knight tt will always protect e princess
n b der only when she needs him....while e knight carries on wif his own life....

it was a nice chat, isn't

2006-07-09T23:50:00.000-07:00

last night was nice...hmm...tink it's more den nice....
had a v long chat wif winnie from ard 1plus to ard 3plus..close to 4am....
tot i nvm had e chance of chatting wif her for so long....
duno y but jux had e feeling tt eva since we broke up, we carn chat for long over e phone or face to face cos will feel awkward....
n tt it's beta to chat on msn or thru sms....
so i was surprised tt i cld chat wif her for so long last night n it was an enjoyable chat...thou we did touch on some sensitive topics....
told her how i felt abt certain things like actuali i was hoping tt she will cum visit me when i was injured n she told me actuali she wanted etc but a few things was holding her back...
den she used a v cute tone to ask me if i was angry wif her for not cuming to visit me when i was injured...so cute n sweet lor e voice...
den she told me tt everytime she n her bf mentioned abt me, dey will confirm quarrel...
n actuali i felt bad in a certain way tt dey quarrel over me...
partly bcos i reali got dix hatred for quarrel...
n she told me tt actuali her bf did request her to ignore me foreva...
which is something tt i can understand but will nvm ask my ger to do so...
i noe tt she like her bf...but some how or rather, i had e feeling tt a small part of e reasons y she wif him is bcos she noe tt her bf will break down if she's not wif him n she dun wan to c her bf breakdown...
so i was asking myself is it true love anot...i duno..i din ask her..
mayb i will ask her one day....
tink she's like e sophie in e 7pm show on channel u from wed to fri
cos she got a prince n a knight....
suddenly felt der's some similarity between me n owen....i told her tt....
she asked if i eva wanted anything in return for everything i did for her...
n i sae jux treat me as ur gd fren, cum to me when u haf prob, let me noe when u need someone to b der, dun ignore me, haf meal occassionally...
went to take a bk from her 2dae after my tuition...
it was a fast one..she passed me e bk n left...
i stood der for a while, tinking abt e past...n finali i decide to head towards e bus stop...
so as usual i will look up to her hse n i was surprised to c her der...
i jux smiled at her n den walked off...
den after i walked for a while, she came running behind me...
so she accompanied me to e bus stop
it was nice chatting wif her at e bus stop...
so nice tt i purposely missed e first bus tt came...
guessed it was a nice wkend...
n tt i carn asked for much....
thx ger=)

keppel scholarship award ceremony...

2006-07-07T12:44:00.000-07:00

yesterday was my keppel scholarship award ceremony....at jewel box at mount faber..
quite a nice day.....ideal dating place...for something new....
so naturally i tot of her....
turn out to b a v nice event....not super grand but enuf to make a lasting impression in me...
something tt i will remember for life....
e video was nice...thou i tink my part quite boring...sld haf brought my tkd black belt instead of e bk...but nvm la..it's over liao....
had e chance to tok to e top management n hence in e process neglected my family n edgar....
felt quite bad...
jux glad tt i got e scholarship n tt i m able celebrate dis success wif pple whom i consider impt in my life...
n made alot of contacts...e seniors scholars r so friendly..made us felt so at home...
romell n david even sae dey planning to org a get-togther for e scholars....
can tell tt e scholars r quite close to each other....
so i m glad to b able to join dis big family.....
n i got my 1st cheque from keppel...
a cool $10k....got e urge to spend to pamper myself....ipod video is on my mind....
die die..beta learn how to control myself...if not sure jia lat lor...
hope to get e fotos tt i took yest from keppel...
n e world is small sia..cos one of e scholars is my sis' classmate in jc...
n i got a free ride on e cable car too....
met winnie for dinner after tt....
fish n co at jp...n shocked tt she nvm eat fish n co b4 until yest....
quite a nice dinner...chat, haf fun...tease her for being short etc....
den we took a walk ard jp b4 i sent her back....
sent her back to her door step jux like wat i used to do but wif a diff identity liao....
den ltr she asked me if i will send other gers back like wat i did to her
n my ans is no....den i told her tt she's e 1st person besides my family tt i hope will b safe n happy everything n tt nothing eva happen to her....
perhaps she's oso e 1st person tt i will risk my life saving besides my family if i had to do so....
den she sae something tt surprise me....
she asked if i still luv her as much as b4...
i told her i duno how to ans tt...but deep down in my heart, i guess i do still luv her as much as b4...even thou i keep telling myself tt i mux treat her as a fren...
it's being so long liao....but e feelings is still der....
mayb it's wif her tt i finally learnt tt to like someone, u dun need to b wif her...jux need to noe tt she's safe n happy all e time can liao....
thou it's nice to b able to met up occassionally for a meal....glad tt she gave me e chance to do so...
n super happy to b able to spend one of my most impt days in my life wif her....even thou we r not together liao....

up til now i can still b jealous

2006-07-05T23:54:00.000-07:00

got a sms from her in e morning asking me who i tink will win for e match ltr between france n por....
quite shocked tt she wan to bet...cos she not soccer fan
den she sae bet for fun...cos like dis world cup got quite a bit of surprises....
went to get my tie wif apple's help...
in e end, got a red tie..which i tink quite AA but quite nice....
oso i abit heck care e ceremony liao....duno y..abit no mood for it...
den came e small surprise...
i got jealous....abit la...
cos she sae she was like maid for dis past few days...
den i asked her y...so she told me tt her bf was sick for e past few days...n so she had to take care of him....
cum to tink abt it..guessed it's jux her style of showing tt she cared....
still remember tt time jux a wk after we got together, i fall sick...n she brought liang teh for me to drink cos she noe my throat not gd...after her lessons ended...
guessed if she can cum my hse, she will definitely cum my hse n take care of me den....
but now e situation not e same liao...
actuali when i concluded tt it's beta to break ur arm ( esp e right arm if u got a gf ), i had her in mind...cos i dreamt of how nice n how happy i will feel when i break my arm n carn feed myself n she can feed me....
but it's jux a dream....
after dis incident where i dislocated my ankle n torn my ligament, i reali tink tt health is v v v v impt....n i jux hope i stay healthy, illness free, injury free....
jux shocked tt i was jealous jux now...cos i dun get jealous v easili...
so wat does tt mean? i dun wan to noe....

frustrated

2006-07-03T19:55:00.000-07:00

i m damned frustrated now!!!!!
my dad seem to know my leg condition beta den i when it's my own body...
tt's y i conclude tt it's beta to injure my hand den my leg...
at least i can still get out of my hse....
wakao lor....i haven being out of my hse since 18jun liao...n i carn take it liao....
thur is my scholarship ceremony....
how i wish she cld b der....but she carn make it cos of work....
mayb i will jux put it as disappointment ba
after all, she's alr not my gf so i carn expect so much from her....
tinking it dis way make me feel beta....
i hope it work tt way.....
me damn pissed now...
duno wat to blog....

haiz...brazil lose

2006-07-02T16:44:00.000-07:00

saw e eng match...den went to bed after tt...tinking tt brazil will ko france easili...
but woke up to a shock tt france ko brazil instead...
tt goes my chance of wearing e brazil jersey in e semi final....
so now both my favourite south american team were out of e world cup....
ger vs italy .....france vs portugal.....
i tink it will b a ger vs france final....
n ger will win cos dey r at home...
my leg is getting beta...can do more funni stuff liao...
jux dun let winnie noe can liao...
if not she sae she will scare to death b4 i fully recover
still carn reali run...but can do gentle jumping....tink by next wk sld b ok liao...
i hope....but still need to gif my grading a miss...nvm la...
suck thumb...n gif me e chance to focus on other things first...
when i fully recover, e first thing i wan to do is to go for a run n e first person i wan to c is my grandma...
haven seen her for 2 wks liao...dun tink she can remember me...

i mux wake up my idea

2006-06-30T14:03:00.000-07:00

went for my bond signing on tue....
saw e other ger, shwu huey, in e lift...
dino e ger was her n was quite surprised when she called out my name...
hmm..i mux sae tt i m not surprised tt she's awarded e scholarship...
she can reali tok n she's v confident of herself....
hmm..n we going to e same sch...hmm...interesting...
but guess tt day, i dun feel like toking too much...
partly cos my leg quite suan tong....so not in e mood....
hope will heal by next thur...
my leg still abit swollen...hope e swell goes away asap....
n i managed to finish 1 book liao...
starting on my next bk....
2nite's match will b nice...but sad tt i carn join enyu n co for e match...
will b nice if i can..but carn...
hope argentina wins....

arggghhhhhhhhhhhh

2006-06-25T22:21:00.000-07:00

actuali i dun noe how to describe my feeling now....
noe tt she's not my gf now...n tt she got a bf now....n dey r v close....
y m i so upset....mayb cos i m now in pain n i hate dis injury of mine...
in e past can keep myself occupy den i wont go n tink so much...
den now i m stuck at home...nothing to keep me occupied so i m tinking too much again...
den when she sms me,i will b quite hapi to c her sms...
but it hurts when u look forward to e sms n it dun cum...
esp during e wkend...my guess is tt she wont sms me cos she's too hapi being wif her bf....
somehow or rather, even if e sms were to cum, it's during e wkdays....when her bf is not ard by her side....den again she sae she wan to save her sms...so der's a few sms tt i din reply her...cos no pt...
actuali i carn haf too high an expectation of her...
after all she is only a fren of mine...nothing more den tt....
when i gave her up, i jux wan her to b happi...she's happi now i guess...
so dun tink it's fair for me to ask for anymore....
guess i jux need to find a gf den will b fine liao....
but can i gif e new ger my whole heart? i felt sorry for e new ger if der's any....
god, pls let me recover soon k....
it's a torture...both mentali n phsysicali

my leg haven recovered yet

2006-06-22T20:48:00.000-07:00

arghhhh
it's being 4 days liao n i can only limped ard my hse....
wondered how long will i take to recover from dix injury...
i carn stand e boredom liao....
i haf being lying on e bed e whole day n i m so sick of it liao...
but der's nothing for me to do n nothing i can do....
tink dis injury reali cum at a wrong time man...
not when i haf my tkd grading on 8 july n my driving pract test on e 3 aug....
starting to curse n swear....but dix is not me....
i dun like to gif in....
hate it when i carn do anything abt it....
n i m starting to lose faith in e sinseh....while i tink he's not tt bad....
but he seem to be holding back, not reali wan to treat me....seem like he wan to cheat my money by keep asking me to go back for check up....
n serious i wonder if e bone is back in place liao...
cos got a feeling tt it's still a bit out of place....
tok for quite a while wif winnie on msn n guesses tt managed to lighten up my mood abit....
let's hope tmr will b beta....
i reali hope so...
n der's alot of food i wan to eat....will b nice if someone cld buy dem for me....

my resolutions

2006-06-20T11:58:00.000-07:00

feb - mar 06
* set e safety system in 6sir right b4 i go
* 15 mar 06 = ord

mar 06 to dec 06
* nuh volunteer ( gif back to society)
* find interesting temp jobs
* improve on my swimming
* get e scholarships i wan
* tkd black belt
* driving license by aug
* learn cooking
* learn blading
* learn a new martial arts
* run ahm 06
* run standard chartered marathon 06
* vertical marathon
*overseas volunteer trip
* enjoy my uni life
* get a beautiful body wif 6pecs
* spend more time wif family n grandma
* learn to appreciate e pple ard me
* go phuket n bangkok
* haf a memorable 21st bdae

part 2 of my reflection- RS

2006-06-20T11:28:00.000-07:00

some lessons tt i had learnt from e short rs i had from 2aug to 21 nov 2005

- gf will appreciate if e guy can spend more time wif her, sms her, call her no matter how busy he is
- to tok / communicate is v v v v v v v v impt. to noe how e gre reali feel is impt...wat she sae may not always b true....
- be observant of her likes / dislikes / habits
- dun b so forgetful
- gf luv surprises, care n concern from e guy
- der's no way u can remove memories from e previous rs. der's always a special place in e heart for all previous rs...but past is past liao...e most impt thing is she had chosen u
- in a rs, der's no such thing as giving her up to another guys jux bcos u 'TOT' tt she will b more hapi wif e other guy (when she din sae or imply tt) n tt e other guy need her more den u need her...it's not a noble action....it's a v stupid thing to do....
- once u found ur soul mate / e ger u reali like, dun let go until she does...
- face e prob 2gether wif her..dun jux sae " let's break up"
- in a rs, it's not a party's fault tt she had a change of heart...b hapi 4 her tt she has found some1 beta n tt suit her more den u do
- to like n luv is not to possess her..jux need to noe tt she's always hapi can liao...b her best fren
- dun let a ger wait for 16days for ur call or sms..it's v painful to wait for so long...
- even if u duno how to explain y u like her so much, let her noe u reali like her
- sometimes u need to fight for wat u wan, sometimes "if it's meant to b, it will b"
- she has her right to choose
- carry out all your promises, dun let her wait too long

my dad

2006-06-19T22:21:00.000-07:00

my dad took leave today...cos my leg injured...
den he brought me to c a sinseh at tiong bahru....
i cldn't walk when i woke up lor...n he almost had to carry me on his back to go c e sinseh...
but i decide to hop on my own...
e sinseh quite gd i hope....
he sae my ankle dislocated n e ligament / muscle ard my ankle tear abit ....
den when he pushed back my bone into place...i almost cried lor...
e pain is....i tink rather kill me suan le....
now at least my toes can move without pain liao...
but my ankle still damned pain...
miss all e nice food...
it will b nice if someone cld get any nice food for me...
but tink beta tt i dream abt it....
tink i spent abt 50bucks in total...20bucks on cab fare n 32 bucks for e sinseh...
mux pay back my parents...
actuali tinking back, my dad is almost perfect if he cld nag less...
but it's his character la...mayb i sld learn to accept it n tok more to him...
den my bond signing got postponed cos of my injury...to next wk...
tink cos a bit of trouble for kcl side n e other scholars...
so paiseh lor...but i reali cldn't walk der....
thur got medical checkup at ntu..duno how m i going to go der sia...
den fri got driving...how to drive wif my leg litat?

my grandpa n grandma bdae present

2006-06-18T21:36:00.000-07:00

i gave a real surprising bdae present to my grandma n grandpa for their bdae...
i came home wif my leg bandaged up n it shocked dem abit....
injured myself during my usual sun morning basketball game...
i stepped on someone's feet...how suay can i get...
n prior to tt, i was telling my cousin tt if u sprained ankle, RICE is gd...cos i read it on e newspaper b4 i left my hse for e bball game...
mux b a curse...
n i tink e sinseh sucks...regret going der...tink tmr i sld go c e other sinseh tt i frequent often...
but how e hell m i going to hobble der?
n i mux sae here...
i n in SOOOOO mucHHHHH PAINNNNNNNNNNN....
cos carn tell anyone....so let it blog it out...
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
called winnie to let her noe of my injury...
initially dun wan to let her noe....cos not v nice...
but still called her cos i carn stand my dad n relatives nagging n i m in too much pain liao
hence i need to hear a smoothing voice...so i called her...
she sounded a bit 'cold'....
den after tt sms her oso no reaction...
guess me jux a bit fan ba....tt's y i m blogging abt my pain here...
tell her oso duno if she will react...
i slp oso can feel e pain lor...mux go n find some painkillers....
i shall blog abt my video shooting experience some other time...
e ankle injury jux spoil my mood for anything=(

my last tots abt e last 2 yrs of NS (unit life)

2006-06-12T23:52:00.000-07:00

looking back, e reason y i wan to commission den is so tt i cld haf a positive influence on e men's lifes n to correct things / systems tt were wrong wif the small authority i had.
unit life exposed me to lifes / stories tt i tot only happened in drama serials even thou i m not a PC
As a dys3 (ops n safety), e responsibilities r great
As a dyS3 (ops),i m jux glad tt i played a small part in keeping spore safe thru the deployment of our guys..but the credit mux goes to the PC n e men on the ground. I jux facilitate to make sure things r in place...
As n nsf, tink my priority is to make sure tt no life is lost during peacetime trg cos no man deserves to lose their life 2 NS.it's both commanders' n men's responsibility to set this priority rite. der r times where i lost focus. der r times where i din get my priority rite. der r times where i din put in 100% of my effort cos i m disillusioned n burn out. I haf got 1 last chance to set things rite in the feb / mar safety meeting b4 i go. i jux dun wan to c any life lost...

*Some significant experiences*
- SMS audit 05/06
- Conducting offr for Bn's ICSB range
- Committee member of heritage run
- writing lesson plan for ROC trg
- ROC trg wif the unit
- PPT / BMT intake
- ord parade / dinner
- turn-ops parade
- Bn safety days
- National day prep

*My take away*
- b clear of wat u wan to achieve n change n jux do it
- dun lost focus of ur goals / aims
- do wat u tink is right, regardless of rank
- change teh system if it's wrong
- treat every1 wif respect n as frens it helps to get things done
- rank isn't everything
- show care n concern for ur men n dey will tok to u
- gif rm for ur sgts n clerk to do their job n step in only when necessary
- follow ur values
- dare to make decisions n take responibilities for ur orders
- blog to make urself heard if der's no one u can tok to

ok..i m tired liao...my arms r aching from e gym workout i did wif enyu n des...
but it feels gd to hit e gym once again after so long...
so e rest i will blog tmr

my last tots abt e last 2 yrs of NS (OCS)

2006-06-12T23:18:00.001-07:00

actuali i did this reflect when i was clearing leave
so i guessed it's in feb
n now i m blogging it cos jux in case i lost the paper

I am always pretty lost when it cum to describing wat i haf being thru for the past 2 yrs...
not tt i duno how to describe...
but i duno where to start n where to end...

The OCS experience

OCS is all abt breaking us up and shaping us into efficient leaders that r both mentally n physically tough while yet confident n competent enuf to lead the men n specs with the correct set of values n to b a gentleman at the same time...

I have changed from someone who dun dare to speak up, who dun dare to implement his beliefs to someone who dare to do wat he preach n stand by his beliefs to make the system work

The delta spirit, the friendships, the experiences, the strong bond built during extremem times, the fun, the tekan, the tears n pain, the process of growing up and maturing, I m jux proud to b from ocs delta wing...
like wat i wrote in my ex lancer reflections den: we fought hard, we refused to gif in to defeat, jux take a moment to observe yourself n e bros ard u, we r starting to behave like an officer n not a cadet liao...
fighting to commission, to get the jcc badge r e few things i haf eva tried so hard to achieve...

"lessons learnt in ocs r e lessons tt will make me diff from my peers. these lessons r not jux abt fitness, tactics, n fieldcraft. dey r lessons in LIFE, lessons in tinking, lessons in analyzing, understanding, accepting n believing"
Cpt Chua Jin Kiat

"it's the journey n lessons learnt tt matter, n not so much the destination. Stand tall, stand proud n neva b afraid to do wat's right"
Cpt Justin Ang

"Maintain a postive learning attitude n wif the right values, u will b able to not only gif yourself a positive ns experience, but to all those within your influence as well"
Cpt Woo

"Do cherish the noble duty of leading tt only a select few r bestowed "
"Exemplary conduct is a lifestyle, not an act"
"Lead ur men wif ur heart, not ur rank"
"Treat ur men as bros n dey will go to the end of the world for u"
"And of course, dun forget to smile"
Maj Ben Looi

tink it's time tt i blog abt this

2006-06-12T22:51:00.000-07:00

*The officer's creed*

I am an officer of the Singapore Armed Forces
My duty is to lead, to excel n to overcome
I lead my men by example
I answer for their training, morale n discipline
I must excel in everything i do
I serve with pride, honour and integrity
I will overcome adversity with courage, fortitude and determination
I dedicate my life to Singapore

*Delta Core Values*

Daring, Cohesive, Lead by example, Integrity, Passion

*Delta Vision*

To be a wing with a strong sense of brotherhood, striving for excellence, daring to make a difference as one

"ONCE DELTA ALWAYS DELTA"